I make a promise. I will do it and won't give up, making the promise come true. Jia you=)

Reality Game part 8

After 1 week since the party, Frank had not been going to school

Truth: Hey Ryan, do you know what happened to Frank?

Ryan: why? are you missing her. I heard that she is done with a fever for the past 1 week.

Truth: *silent (wonder how is she now?)

Truth: (looking at his phone, wondering whether to dial Frank's number)

Suddenly, Ryan snatched the phone from the back and dial on Frank no.

Frank: Hello. This is Frank.

(Ryan passing the phone back to Truth)

Truth: Hi...

Frank: erm, who are you?

Truth: hi, i am Truth
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ha ha! i went for a hair cut today...so before my hair can get any longer again, it became short again=)

I just like the person who cut my hair, he is so...*charming

Today, got to do some work=). My goal (emo and complete by friday)

everyone work hard for your dreams and goals.

I will go to those developing countries to help out when i grow older every year=)

Thanks to her. I finally cried.

Today, I received a letter. It is probably the nicest gift i ever had. It is a bookmark with the Name Hope on it. I just got very attracted to it and can stare at it for hours. Just looking at it, a lot of things went through my mind so fast that i does not know what it is. But just a very nice feeling.

It is not the letter that i cried. But just a person whose words really touch my heart. It has been so long since i cried and i really like the feeling. Especially during christmas... a sign of relief.

Now, it is really time to let go everything and do my work...I mean report.

Jia you!! got to reach my aim for this week. by sunday night=)

hope

roar, i can't stand it...i am seriously unhappy!! who ever come and disturb me is like stepping on a mine...

and i still got reports to start, which i haven't

1. Home
2. Counseling

reports that need edit

1. lifestyle

and i think my counselor is going to kill me (Bai, 2010)

Videos to edit:

1. pottery
2. Junk food
3. Junk food
4. Junk food
... and it takes ages


Looking at happy pictures, make me want to escape into a world where only happy things happen. Happy things are always seen to be far-fetched. Yet, standing at a different angle. One may get more happiness...=)

Just when my mood was getting better, I got seriously mad again.

" my friend PS me again, and this time is like she told me just a few minutes when i was about to reach again". I sort of know that she was busy this few days, but she promised me to go out... okay, should not be nagging about her...but still quite mad. and though i say to let her test her own medicine, i won't do it after thinking about it...=)

But if you happened to be reading this, ya... But i will soon be happy again. But don't Ps me last minute again. I don't mind that you are late, BUT DON'T PS ME =(

This few days, flooded with videos to do. i think i saw like blur images when i am walking back from school... Thousands and one thing to do...too many things to do and time is precious.

And sorry guys, for changing the timing for programme planning. But i promise to finish doing on thurs=)

I was also partially mad this few days, becos of my dad and the story book wasn't published yet=(

i hardly scold anyone, until i really cannot stand it.

BUT HE IS REALLY A PIECE OF SHIT.

Reality game part 7

Truth: Let’s go out and talk first (reaching out for Frank’s hand to put on his shoulder; to carry him out)

Frank’s thoughts: can I really accept him? His back is really very warm and comfortable

Truth: Frank, are you alright? (putting her down on the seat in the garden)

Frank: yess.. i am feeling just fine (Frank looked away while Truth still holding her hands)

Truth: Will you be willing to be my girlfriend?

Frank: (Looked at Truth in Shock) Stop Kidding. It is not really funny. We don’t suit each other.

Truth: Why not? You haven’t yet. You know you are my first person that i really love and hope to be with you forever.

Frank: Are you very sure that i am the first girl that you like? I mean I looked very ordinary and not pretty. And on the other hand, you are always surrounded my many pretty girls, and you are telling me that you don’t have any girlfriends before?

Truth: YES. I don’t have. Though I am very popular in school (with a grime), you take note of me, don’t you? You are the first girl that I really love. I am a serious lover and I take relationships very seriously. I once told a friend that I am wearing a mask that no one knows. I am a very different person. A person who has low confidence and used my laughter to hide my emotions and my low self-esteem. I longed to find someone that I truly loved and care about me.

Frank: Are you very sure?

Truth: You wait for a while (he ran to the nearest provision shop)

Truth: pls close your eyes

(Truth set up “somethings”)

Truth: you can open your eyes now

Frank: saw a heart shaped make up of sparklers.

Truth: Will you be my girlfriend? One and only true love

Frank:...

(Before she can say anything, Sharon called ...)

Sharon: Frank, we got to gather now. Come on.

Frank: Alright...and off she went. (look at Truth and she turned away)

Truth: (sit) How can i touch her heart?

It has been a long time since I type here. Ha-ha! Today, I manage to sort of guess correctly the things that 2 of my friends gave me and it makes me happy. Because, it makes me feel that horoscope is sort of real and link to every human in terms of their personality. I like the feelings of able to look through people’s mind and I can be very frank and sometimes to frank. Haha! It is nice to sort of analyze people true personality, the personality that they longed to hide it. As a scorpion, I like to sort of dig it out. And that how people used to avoid Scorpio. So don’t let me be “interested” in you as a specimen.

Human are so magical in terms of their emotions. They show many sides of emotions and feelings that they longed to hide. And of course, that includes me too- I don’t like others to dig my inner feelings. Yet I longed to understand how I really feel. Though I don’t like to hear, I still want to know. This blog seems to be a platform for me to release what I wanted to say. Though some point in time, I will still hide it.

This few days, I have been feeling sort of sad. I felt that life is really very saddening and I am really emotionally drained from the upcoming projects and reports to do. I felt that currently I am in the avoidance stage, where I go with my emotions and feelings instead of my logic and rationale. I being to avoid doing things that I really hated and started to immerse myself with Television programme. It is a miracle that someone actually finds out and tells me that, “Are you using it as an escape”. I got a shock at that time; I felt that she is actually correct. Perhaps I am just escaping from something, someone...

My determination is also decreasing. I test myself using the MRT tracks. It is stupid but at least it helped me to test how well can I resist. There is sort of a more comfortable road home from Newton and I liked to take a bus home from there. But of course, I need to save money and I will fully utilize my concession and walk home when I reached my stop. And I actually failed. I took a bus home for most of the time.

This few days, I kept watching mischievous Kiss. I really like the male character, seong jo, expecially his evil smile. Boys like him is sort of annoying but that what girls like about him. But at least he is VERY faithful. I can keep watching the show non-stop. Perhaps it is partially, i am in the avoidance stage. I really liked him a lot. It is the first time that i really talked about idol in this way... Perhaps bad influence from Yixin (counsellor...pls take note) It makes me feel like falling in love. Ha-ha! But it is not time yet for me...(-_______-)

Reality game part 6

Truth's thoughts: should i talk to her and ask her for a reply...perhaps she does not want to reply me?

Noisy boy: Are you going to prom tomorrow?

Quiet girl: Maybe not.

Noisy boy: As the sky turns blue, will you be there for me?... Lets' meet in the middle of the ballroom at 12am. I will be waiting there for you no matter what happen.

(before quiet girl can reply, noisy boy has gone offline)

Quiet girl's thoughts: should i go or not? (she stared at puff who is fast asleep. Puff prepared a another dress which is exactly the same for Quiet girl). I think i will get some sleep and think about it tomorrow.

The next day...

Ryan: how is it? are you ready for the prom tonight? So have you talk to the girl of your dreams and meet her tonight?

Truth: sort of yes. I have tell her who i am, however she did not give me any reply. and i got sort of worried that she won't come to the prom tonight, so i make an "agreement without getting her reply"

Ryan: cool man! first time, hearing you woo a girl. It seems that you hit a hard nail.... hEY, do you know who she is?

Truth: I sort of guess that she is Frank. but she did not tell me whether my guess is correct or not.

Ryan: So until now, you are still not sure who are you confessing to?... hey wait a minute, you sort of guess she is Frank and you confess to her?... does that mean that you like Frank?

(before Truth said anything, Truth and Ryan spotted Puff and Frank walking toward them)

Truth walked forward to them.

Truth: Hello. Will you be going to the Prom tonight? (Truth looked at Frank)

Puff: of course, i will go to the prom tonight. (Puff looked at Truth and looked at Frank)

Truth: How about you, Frank?

Frank: erm, i am still thinking about it. I suppose maybe not... Sorry, we got to go now, class is starting soon. (Dragging Puff away.)

Puff: Bye Truth.

Ryan: Give up, Truth. I think Ms Frank has no interest in you at all. On the other hand, I think Puff is in love with you. Maybe You will like to change your choice.

Truth's Thoughts: It looks like she is not coming to prom tonight at all.

Truth: I am very confident that Frank likes me. (Thinking about the words that they chatted at first)

Ryan: I admire your courage. But i doubt so. Do you need my help?

(The night of prom)

Puff: are you going to prom tonight? (busy preparing her dress and putting on make-up)

Frank's thoughts : (still sitting in front watching tv, but her mind is somewhere else: should i go and meet the guy that i always wanted to know who he is?) since I know that truth can't possibly like me. But...

Frank: I don't think i will be going. Enjoy your night, k.

Puff: all right, but... never mind. I will enjoy myself. haha! meeting new guys and meeting truth.

Frank: You are meeting Truth?

Puff: haha! yes, we had a date.

Puff's thoughts: no matter what i will tell truth that i like him.... i am sorry Frank. let me borrow your quiet girl name and tell him that i am Quiet girl.

Puff: Bye Frank. (Whispering, sorry Frank)

(Puff leaving the house)

Frank's thought: Sorry Noisy boy. (watching television program)

Frank went to on the computer.

(On the computer, it shows : no one is online currently)

zzzzzzzzz...you got a mail

feme: Hey Frank, you are not to prom tonight? Do you want to join in a treasure hunt game?

Frank: huh? Treasure hunt? I thought you want to go to prom tonight

Feme: At first yes, but i think about it and felt like not attending. After all, not many of my clique is going, so We decide to play this treasure hunt game. Do you want to join in?

Frank: I think i will like to join in. Thanks for the invitation. haha!

Feme: okay! we shall meet at tiong at 7pm. You will be in sharon's group. By the way, the last station will be in the prom ballroom. haha! i set it cos i wanted to take a look at the prom. Is that okay with you?

Frank: yes, it is okay.

(At 7 pm, Frank set off)

(meanwhile, Puff is busy mixing around with people in the ballroom and Truth came.)

Puff: hey Truth, you came?

Ryan: haha! Puff, you looked great today. May i ask you to dance?

Puff: yep, but wait... i got something to tell Truth. (being dragged away by Ryan)

Truth went out to the garden alone, waiting to go back to the ball room at 12 am. He walked through and fro... feeling very anxious.

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Meanwhile. frank was still on a treasure hunt with her other friends

Sharon: Hey frank, we are going to lose. Our group got to break up to look for the other clues. Can you go to the prom first? to look for the crown and take a photo of it first?

Frank: All right, I suppose i can go there alone first.

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back at the prom.

Puff: Hey Truth. So you are in the garden. i have been looking for you, high and low.

Truth: Hi Puff, why are you looking for me? is there anything?

Puff: Erm, Truth. I have something that i wanted to tell you. and i suppose that it will be better to tell you face to face. ...actually I am Quiet girl.

(Meanwhile Frank was hiding behind the pillar, hearing the conversation)

Puff: I wanted to tell you this and through the conversation, i have slowly grow to love you.

Truth: you are Quiet girl?... (he went into shock, how about Frank?)

Puff: and yesterday, you ask me whether do you want me to be your girlfriend and my answer is yes.

Truth: erm... sorry, but i think that there is a misunderstanding here. I am very sorry. Are you really quiet girl?

Puff: yes,... we have been partner for the competition for about one month.

(Frank's heart sank, when she heard Puff confessing to him.)

Frank's thoughts: so Noisy boy is really Truth...and Puff really like Truth a lot. (Frank walked away slowly)

(Meanwhile, Ryan was also in the garden, he heard the conversation and saw Frank hiding in the pillar and walking away in tears.)

Truth: Sorry, i think that there is a misunderstanding. I thought that you are quiet girl is someone and confess to her. I am so sorry about this.

Puff: but I really love you a lot. Why can't you love me too? who do you like?

Truth: I am so sorry about this...(walk away, leaving Puff alone in the garden)

Ryan: Hey truth, i have something to tell you (dragging truth away to the side)

Ryan: I heard your conversation about the love confession. and sad to tell you, i am not the only one to heard it. Someone heard it and left with tears. You apparently broke 2 ppl hearts in one night.

Truth: who?

Ryan: Frank heard it too. She heard the whole conversation.

Truth: really? she really heard it? and she cried? where is she now? I got to explain to her.

Ryan: Are you sure you really like Frank? she does not look like she suits you, do you know? and after all, she is not Your QUIET girl. she is just an ordinary girl who is just an average girl

Truth: I understand that. but i just cannot stop thinking and looking at her. I got to explain to her. Where is she now? tell me.

Ryan: she left and she looked like she is walking towards the backstage of the ballroom.

(Truth ran to the backstage, looking very worried and anxious)

Ryan: Love is just like this. Hope that all lovers will be forever together.

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(at the backstage, it is very dark)

Truth: Frank, are you there? can you hear me?

(a pot dropped and a clanking sound was made)

Frank's thoughts: oh my leg, it hurts. I think i must have sprained it. what a bad day. (Frank started to sob) my best friend is with the person that i loved. My best buddy online is the person that i wished that he could love me. All went wrong...

Truth: Frank, are you there?

Frank's thoughts: I must have been hallucinating. That seems to be Truth's voice. It can't be...

(as Truth's voice got louder)

Truth: are you there, Frank? answer me please. I am sorry, k. Please come out.

Frank's thoughts: Oh my leg, it really hurts.

Frank: Is there anyone, I am here.

Truth: Is that you Frank? wait for me.

In the dark. Frank and Truth met.

Truth: what happened, Frank? Are you alright?

Frank: I tripped over the shelf and i sprained my ankle. and now i can't walk.

Truth: Can you get up? I will help you up.

Frank: my leg really hurts a lot. I can't get up now.

Truth: Come, i will carry you on my back.

Frank: is that alright? erm... i think no. Can you get someone to help?

Truth: Are you avoiding me? (touching Frank's face which is covered with tears.)

Frank: No...(with her voice sounding rough). why should i avoid you?

Truth: Because You know that your best friend, Puff confess her love to me. and you are afraid that you will...

Frank: No. I am not avoiding you. Though i know that she likes you. I knew that... and you are just a normal friend. why should i avoid you?

Truth: (Holding Frank's shoulder and looking into her eyes. Frank tried to avoid direct eye contact.)... because you like me.

Frank: No. (Trying to push his hands away)

Truth: Hear me out, okay! I don't love Puff. I only treated her as a friend. My heart lies with you. I really love you, Frank.

Frank: (in a shock, before she can say anything)...

Truth hugged and kiss Frank. Frank tried to resist but in the end, give in.

Frank: But why me?

Truth: (still hugging Frank) Haha! i did not notice you in the first place, Frankly. But i sort of got attracted to you, when you seems special as everyone surrounded me and started to greet me but you did not. I got really curious about you. I started to notice you and your every actions. Your smile really captivated me. Your words and your silent really keep my heart pumping. The feelings that whenever i meet you, is really very different from what i had with other girls.

Frank: that is because that you are always being chased by girls. Now, you are just thinking that i am a person, or perhaps a goal that you wanted to achieve. And now, you reach the goal. you will simply kick me aside.

Truth: No. That is not true, and i will prove it to you...

i felt that i am lagging behind in whatever i do, especially due to the high dose of ice cream the week before. I am now physically and mentally drained. I felt that i am very slow in the things that i do, and desperately need very clear instructions to do my work. Need to be very organized in my work, listing down the things that i need to finish and etc. Be clear and not waste any single time on not necessary things. I tried to reduce my tv time and do my work or read some books now. However, I felt that i am emotionally tired. Monday, i was getting a big headache and i went home early, so i did not attend 2 meeting... felt being lag behind. GOTTA catch up... by reading minutes.

Today, i was watching a movie which our neuro teacher was showing us. It was funny and it talks about a lady who will lose the memory the next day due to a brain trauma. I wonder how it will be like to lose the short term memory and forget what happen after everyday, only retaining the previous memory before the car accident. It might be a good thing, if you often lived in happiness previously. Similar incident happen to my friend colleague and it seems normal to her. Perhaps, if one lived a simple life, does time really matter to one?

Reality game part 5

Truth's thoughts: Did i make a correct guess? She is actually in love with me...

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For the following week before the night at the prom, Truth was waiting online for his quiet girl. But strangely quiet girl was never online.

Truth's thoughts: where have she gone?

(back in school)
Truth and Frank walked past each other everyday, without a word of communication. Perhaps, they just lacked of opportunities to talk as Truth was always surrounded with girls.

November 8 2010: Truth saw Frank walking right in front of him. He ran forward, wanting to grab hold of her bag like what he always did to others. But before Truth could grab her bag...

Ryan and Truth other's girl friends: Hey Truth!! (touch Truth's shoulders)

(Ryan could sense that Truth wanted to talk to Frank as he saw Frank just an arm length away from Truth)

(Frank who heard the Truth's commotion, turn around and look at Truth. Truth looked into Frank's eyes... Before he could utter a word, Frank looked away and walked further and further away.)

This carries on for the whole week. Just like two strangers...walking past each other

(The night before prom)

Truth:zzzzzzzzzz (out popped a window) Quiet girl was online

Truth's thoughts: She is online.

Truth: Hello, are you there?

Frank's thoughts: Should I reply back?

Quiet girl: Yup, I am Here.

Truth: How are you? WHy are you not online for the whole week?

Quiet girl: Just that, I am avoiding someone...( Frank wanted to delete what she type, when a bell ring and she accidentally press on the send key)

Truth's thoughts: who is she avoiding? Me?

(At the door)

Puff: Hey Frank, I am sleeping here tonight. Going to camp with you. I need some ideas about the dress that i am wearing to the prom night tomorrow. (Before Frank could say a word, Puff went to the room)

Puff: Frank, could you get me a drink?

Frank: ALright!!

(Msn)

Truth: Are you avoiding me? The other time, did i guess correctly? You like Truth?

(Hey, the com is on. Let me see who is Truth talking to? Puff reading the computer.)

Puff's thoughts: Frank like Truth and she did not tell me about it...

Puff( using quiet girl's name:): Erm, No... I don't like Truth, he is so arrogant, like to play with girls...

Truth: Erm, he is actually not like that. Perhaps, it is what others see him to be as. But he is quite a nice person and he treat people with sincerity especially his love ones... What if...

Puff: I don't see him as this type of person (Puff is just lying). and what if?

Truth: I tell you That i am Truth.

Puff's thoughts: he is truth. Frank is talking to Truth.

Truth: and if i tell you that i love you...

Puff: He is truth and i am talking to truth. He likes Frank...

(Meanwhile, Frank:" Puff, your drink is here")

(Puff, immediately sign out from msn)

Truth: She is offline. I wonder how she felt about me. Did she get a shocked. Am i too direct?

(Puff and Frank was sharing ideas about Puff's dress for tommorrow's prom until late at night.)

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(When Puff was asleep, Frank went online...)

Reality game part 4

Puff: Why are you talking to him? He knows you? why are you both talking....

(Frank was lost in the thoughts, wondering and recalling what happened just now)

Frank's thoughts: he actually knows me! Frank!!...(Still thinking), I must be hearing it wrongly...

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(In class, Ding Dong!! Class ended)

Mr Tan: Hey class, wait!! I have a question. Just wanted to see a raise of hands who is going for the prom tonight.

(Almost the whole class raise the hands, except Frank and a couple of boys)

Puff: Frank, you are not going to the prom?

Frank: I am not sure, let me think about it. I am very tired...

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zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....you got a mail

Quiet girl: Who is that? Oh Noisy boy.

Noisy boy: how is your day again?

Quiet girl: Just alright. it wasn't a very good day, anyway! I got a bash on my face by a basketball. And my specs fell on the ground.

Noisy boy: (what a coincidence, Frank got hit by the basketball too and her specs fell on the ground. Is it really FRANK that i chatting with. Let me see what happen...) so what happen next.... are you alright?

Quiet girl: Yep, just had a bruise on my head...but fine. Ermmmm, nothing really happened...except, he pick up my specs...

Noisy boy: That good.... Who is the he? You mean... the guy that you like?

Quiet girl:.......yeeeeeeesssssssss... it is like so embarrassing in front of him. I hope to go in a hole when he picked up specs... (oh CRAP, i does not know his identity and i have told him so many things.)

(Just as Noisy boy was about to ask if quiet girl was Frank, Quiet girl went offline)

Noisy boy: 0___0!!! she went offline...

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Quiet girl's thought: did i tell him too many things. It can't be so coincidence... that i am talking to Truth... it can't be the truth.

Reality game part 3

Quiet girl: (Yawn!!) Today is not a very good day for me.

Noisy boy: Why?

Quiet girl: I have fallen in love with a guy in school. He is like the sun in our school and he is always accompany by girls in the school. Every time when i see him, he is like being surrounded by lots of girls in school. Even my best friends like him. I felt that in his eyes, perhaps i am just one lonely shadow floating around in the school. I doubt that he even notice me. Since there are like 300 hundreds students in the course, and i wasn't even in his class.

Noisy Boy: Who is the guy? Are you referring to me? Perhaps you really think too lowly about yourself. At least, i notice you and i am a very popular guy in school too. Have more confident in yourself. Perhaps, this guy wears a mask in front of people... you never know.

Quiet girl: Yep, referring to you (just kidding). Perhaps i am not that bad as i really thought i am to be. Btw, What do you mean when you say he wears a mask?

Noisy boy: A mask is something that hides you from showing the real personality that you have in front of people...

Quiet girl: So are you saying you are wearing one too? Behind the real you, which is always surrounded by many people?

Noisy boy:... to be frank, yesssss. I felt that i am not living alone in this world. Indeed, i am not alone. Always being binded by other's people expectation to do well in many things. Unable to really show my emotion out to others. In school i may seem to be a very fun loving person, surrounded by lots of people, yet... there is no one who I really can talk to... and I am just appearing or doing what others expects me to do...

Quiet girl: Perhaps in this environment, everyone has that kind of mask. A mask that allows you to breathe, having a bit of personal space. Behind that mask, is filled with self expectation and things that others wants you to excel on... I understand that kind of feeling.

Noisy boy: yep!! at least, being online i will be able to freely express myself, without the eyes of others. Being the true me... Btw, who is the guy that you like?

Quiet girl: Yesss... that true, with no opinion of others and don't need to be concern about how others will look at you. haha! since you are in the same course as me, make a guess!!

Noisy boy: All right, shall guess. Popular guy... james?

Quiet girl: No! wrong (chuckled). Popular than james...

Noisy boy: ok!! more popular than james. Ryan?

Quiet girl: Wrong. But you are close... how about guessing yourself.

Noisy boy: Truth.

Quiet girl's thoughts (shocked): he is truth. the one! is he really the one. I have been talking to truth.

Noisy boy:....hey!! did i make a correct guess? Why did you not continue talking?

Quiet girl (still in shock): Sorry, i got to go...

Noisy boy: Hey wait!! Will you be going to prom next week friday?

(Quiet girl left the conversation at 11.11pm)

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(the next day:)

Frank's thoughts: How come my heart is bouncing so heavily today? wonder if anything bad will happen? Or is he near me?

(Frank looked around as she was walking to school from the long long passage way)

Frank: what a relief!! there is no one around... that good! I suppose that is just my senses that is working wrongly today.

(Suddenly, a ball came flying hitting Frank's face and her specs fall onto the ground)

James (the owner of the ball): I am so sorry, Frank. Sorry that i hit you!! are you alright!! So sorry, i got to run... Treat you food next time.

Frank: it's okay!! i am fine. (Looking for her specs on the ground. Just as Frank spotted her specs, a hand pick the specs up and hand it to her).

Frank: Thank you. (wearing her specs)

Truth: You are welcome. Are you alright? You are Frank from Class 3 right? In psychology, I saw you a couple of times?...

Frank( in a shock): Yep, thank for picking my specs up...

(before Frank can continue...)

Puff(Frank's friend): Hey Frank, you are so slow... We are late for our class now...

Reality Game Chapter 2

After the lecture ended, Frank ran home... Truth went out with his other friends to the nearby shopping center to continue their chat.

Truth: Yawn!! i am feeling so tired.

Ryan: You deserve it, for chatting until late at night. So who is the girl that you have been chatting with for so long? huh!! There is so many girls waiting for you in school, mr prince charming. So who is the girl who manage to open your heart?

Truth: I am not sure myself too. She says that she was in the same course as us in the same school. At least, that narrows down to just 300 students in the course.

Ryan: You haven't seen her face yet? that's like so long since you chatted with her online? You are so slow...

(Truth suddenly became very quiet)

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Back at home, Frank immediately on the computer...

Frank thoughts': he is not home yet.

Frank waited in front of her computer...until she fell asleep.

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Ryan: wow, we have been chatting for so long. Lets' go for dinner now. I wan to eat...

Truth: Sorry Ryan, I think you will have to go with the rest. I promise my mother to eat dinner at home.

Ryan: Wow!! when are you such a good boy? I really wonder...is it really auntie or the mystery girl

Truth: I really got to go!! and i really wanted to tell you... You are full of rubbish
(Chuckled**)

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Truth's thoughts: oh my!! It is like midnight. I wonder will she be online now. Click!! Oh she is online!!

Noisy boy: hey!! what are you doing?

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Meanwhile, " YOU got a mail!! zzzzzzzzzz"

Quiet girl: oh he is online now!!

The Reality Game chapter 1

Their conversation seems never ending. Their words are always repeating and yet none of them got bored. Ever since, the game of Love game brought them together. Being paired up online and playing the game together, winning the 2nd in the love game competition, they seemed to be always online and offline together.

Noisy boy: "Hey quiet girl, what are you doing now?"

Quiet girl: "Nth!! just surfing the net and doing my homework. How was your day today? Having fun in school?"

Noisy boy:"Haha! yep, school is just so fun for me.

Quiet girl: Any stories to share about girls together...since you have been telling me how popular you are in school? how girls simply adore you to the max.

Noisy boy:Yep, i think so too!! the girls simply chase me from one end to another end of school. Did you see it, since you are in the same school as me... haha?

Quiet girl: No, haha! i am just oblivious to my surrounding. I don't see their faces when people walks past me, so apparently i won't know and I don't even know how you look so... ya!!

Noisy boy: yea!! u are simply just blind, lol!!

Quiet girl: you may not know, maybe i am in reality.

Noisy boy: knowing you for like half a year, and knowing that you are in the same school as me... but why did we not meet even once?

Quiet girl: don't you know that the truth is always horrible, so why do we have to meet up?

Noisy boy: yea!! so you mean you are very ugly is it...

Quiet girl: yea!! i am very ugly that all... i got to go now. so see you again tmr!!

Noisy boy: Hey,.........(she went offline at a super fast speed everytime whenever we talk about appearance. Wonder what she is doing?)

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Back in Princeviewly University.

Puff: JiGGLE, Frank!! cheer up!! You look super tired every night. What have you been doing all night long?

Frank: Just chatting online with one of my friend.

Puff: lol! what time did you end your ...chat?

Frank: About 4am. I suppose.

Puff: lol!! Did you really fall in love with this guy? You have been chatting with him for a month and chatting from the evening to late at night everyday.

Frank: Lol!! Maybe...I dun know. He seems to be a very nice person to talk to after all and he is very friendly.

Puff: hey, maybe he is your true prince charming after all...look at your 3 o'clock direction.

Frank: huh?

(Puff was pointing to the most handsome and popular man that she think it was in our course. Indeed, it was very true. Truth was just voted to be Mr university in our school.)

Frank: yup!! he was always being surrounded by other girls. He won't take note of you, Puff. Forget it...you know!! We are just normal school students who are not sporty or glamorous in the eyes of others. He won't take note of us. Anyway, we will be late for class. Lets' go...

Puff: Yup!! what you said is probably right! Lets' go! but it won't harm to let me take a sneak look at him.

Frank: Ok! you shall take a look, while i attend class without you. (Frank just walk past Truth)

(Puff continued to look at truth, covering her mouth with her book)

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Truth, on the other hand, was wondering : " how come this girl can just walk past me without even look at me". Wonder who she is??

Ryan: Truth, who are staring at? You finally thought of having a girlfriend, is it? Staring at some pretty girl?

Truth: No. Just that...By the way, do you know who is that girl? (Pointing to her backview to Ryan)

Ryan: lol! You are finally curious about someone. Oh, you mean the girl who was in pink and white? She is... let me check it out for you.

(Coming back)

Ryan: The girl is Frank. She is a year 2 student in Psychology, same as us. How come we did not get to see her? She looks quite cute and pretty. But heard from my friend that her eye sight was not that good and she is quite quiet.

Truth: Oh i see. No wonder she did not get a close look at how handsome i looked...lol!! So she is called Frank... o...

(Truth have been staring at her backview throughout the whole lecture)

Looking at my previous post, i think that it was the first time i voice my displeasure online. These school opening week was not a very nice week for me, thinking that my birthday was on that day too!! I had to rush out my report that i thought it was supposed to be handed in 5 weeks after school reopen and not on week 5 of school. All the celebration mainly from my family side and my poly clique... i miss my best friends to beside me and giving me my present. Lots of people own me present. while their presents was stacking up inside my drawer. One overseas , while the others was super busy with their upcoming exam... and as usual exams are the most important for them and me too!! so i understand their situation!! after all, i did that to them often.

Now listening to emo songs from love writer 1. He stopped writing love stories which is rather a sad thing and now i am super immerse in love writer 3 blog...however his stories are published only weekly. I finally finished my report and got it printed out!! But i realised that i have 5 more reports which require intense research and lots of words (min 1500 for 1 report, others are 2000 words each). However, life is full of hope and I got to live positive as i can't afford to collapse... xiangjun says this: life is full of ups and downs. No one lives a perfect life and the only thing that one can do is just to live happily with it and just don't disappoint ppl around you. After all, others' happiness will be your happiness (one may disagree or agree)

After today, I am not watching tv anymore le... i supposed. Got to live a healthy lifestyle. with only exercises and books in my life, i supposed that the way others wants me to live. The emo song is really making me upset, but i really can't stop myself from pressing the mute button. Got to sleep early so as to wake up early to do those assignments. and project work!!

Random: I am one who really enjoyed playing pet society, becos there is no school and all one needs to earn money was just to visit their friends. My pets ryar and skies are able to design their own house, and they will never die of hunger. different variety of food available for them. If human are able to determine their own life, control their own future, will it be a good or a bad thing? Ignoring others' presence, thoughts, their feelings, their words and their actions. When the clock strike 12am, i will be back to my usual self... quiet and sedated!! or changed to my childhood days- talkative, irritating and crappy!!

i just feel like scolding someone now. I really admired those who have flawless English language. Now i have to correct my english and hopefully, i can sent to charlotte by tonight. BUT it really sucks!! i HECK CARE LE!! I NEED TO GET MY SLEEP!!!! so rude22@

Yesterday is the last day of my clinical. Having mixed feeling of wanting to continue to stay and wanting to go back to be with my friends in school! When i last seen the office, where i had to go and report to Ama about the plans that i make. The new friends that I make during clinical, having a fun time during clinical, as my sup was a nice person to befriend, though she still acts like a supervisor. She taught me a lot of things and i really appreciate it. Ha ha! any way school is going to start next week and i got to go back to school on Monday! and not to mention, i still have a report to hand in next week. probably would start today!! got to start soon. but let me have fun today!!

i have really enough sleep yesterday!! ha-ha! it is super nice to rest in bed and wake up like no one business. don't need to wake up, thinking of plans and case notes. endless of sleepless night, where i slept early but wake up early to do case notes and plans for my treatment, where my only television programme was Holland village replay.

today, got to go out and want to buy something from daison!! I want to go vivo!! But i cant find anyone who has flexible timings. ha ha!! never mind=')

the halloween night at sentosa on saturday is super fun lo! we went for trail walk, though i felt it is ex initially, but quite worthwhile. ha ha! the place was filled with people screaming and it was so thrilled to hear other screaming, oh my i am just weird. gee!! during the trail, i kept stepping on people's shoes. ended up apologizing so much! and i find my trait: when i am feeling scared, i will just keep on laughing till my stomachache. But it is just super funny to see their eyes so big and glow in dark and thinking that they are just human who dress like that, it is just super funny and not frightening at all. unless, i suddenly turn and see a head in front of me, then i will be scared... that all! but it is fun!! but a pity that i did not get to go to the sky tower. wanted to go up as i have been seeing the sky tower for a few times, but i never got to go up every-time. so it's a pity. but anyway, it is nice to go home together as a group since it is getting dark too!!

ha ha! time to watch tv. and i learn to do your best for everything in the world. and do it fast before anything bad happen. But i only realised it after clinical!!

xj

hope that it will be a nice next week!!

Life is not as straight as it looks. all we can do is to try our very best in everyday life. OH my god, I think i am getting mad. cos i felt that my words made sense now=')

I am feeling so hungry now. Because, I have to let my sup check on my CRD by possible today!! so Woke up at 2 plus, and because I need to plan treatment for 2 children... what should i do for that kid. I think i will want to cook maggi mee for myself early in the morning. Ha ha! can't stop feeling happy yet lethargic early in the morning. Being human, one has to happy right, no matter what difficulty we face. Though the events that we face in attachment may not be of the best scenario to some of us, but i believe that there are always people to assist us and guide us along the way. I still can remember that i think i impress the examiner by stating this sentence ' i believe that whatever the teacher did it is all for our own good regardless how boring the lesson is'. ha ha! this sentence is not meant to shoot the teachers, but i sincerely believe that the things that they did now is all for our own good. Truthfully, i believe that teachers truly meant to help us.

just realize that i really like stars a lot, as the window, my foam board and my wall is covered with stars. or at least there is some stars presence. I don't know what to say, but since yesterday i felt very moody. thought can go out for a walk this afternoon. but my friend is too busy and she is flooded with lots of work, so it is better not to disturb her and drag her out. Next week, i will drag her out if possible. hope that aust friend will come back and we can go out together once again. When one grows up, one will tend to miss the happy times that one had when they are young. I finally see and understand my cousins' feeling when they told me to enjoy the times being in college with your friends. this memories is really very memorable, and i really wanted to treasure them as much as possible. don't know is it because i have been hearing sad songs since Friday, i really felt like crying out loud. but on the other hand, i wanted to rush out my room and watch tv. contradicting right. The worse of it is my MOO MOO is having his nice sweet bath so tonight he can't sleep with me anymore, must wait till he is dry.

Homework:
1. do CRD
2. read up my sup books
3. ABC book and know how to administer it
4. plan for next week clients
5. prepare for PDMS

JIA YOU! everyone=")

ha ha! whenever i see such pictures, i felt that i am more fortunate than many others. when i was a new born baby, a fortune teller told my parents that i can only live till ha ha...not very long. Recently, they told me this... and the best thing that i can only do is to live happily everyday. Since, I have chose this path might as well finish it with a happy heart. Becos, i know that i may regret eventually as why didn't i continue with this path and choose to go back to the starting point. Even though, there are many times where you can't see the end of the road and where is the road going to end. But somehow, one day, you will finish walking the path. though at the end, you may choose to take another different type of racing track after you finish your race. But you can tell yourself that you have already completed the race just like what others did...

I keep telling my friend that if i let the patient fall, i will let him fall on me. and i will pretend to faint... and if i don't think i can take the examination, i will just faint. But i felt that if i will to die now, i wanted to complete the examination or finish walking to the path because i wanted to prove myself right and test the extent to which my abilities can go. I wish that i can be as competent as others, but many people in this world are just not alike... there are many aspects in which you are stronger and others are weaker. to me, i felt that i am a very very ordinary girl with weak muscles and not very strong in my studies, my EQ and IQ is not very high. Whatever, i do i am always slower than others and often clueless...the things that i have now, i gain it through hard work. Though sometimes working hard does not equal to success. But seeing people with happy smile on their face is probably the best thing in the work that i can get. Every happy smile in the world, i hope that when i am gone (don't know when), i can bring these memories along. As for my parents, they hope that i can be as happy as i can be and enjoy everyday...

that the best wishes of every parents and i believe it... since the path had already laid down for you, keep n walking, live your life happy and people around you happy as i will not know the next minute that they will be gone...

Yesterday as i stared from the office into the sky, i saw a heart shape cloud. sort of it!! and they looks like cotton sweets, feel like munching it as i was feeling hungry and very tired. Flooded with documentation, actually not a lot but I have a client report to do cos of one of the assessment that i did beforehand, as most of my friends know that my English is not that fantastic, i really find it very hard to write the report and there is no references for me to follow. Why there is no TYS for documentation?

today, was a total shag day for me!! Actually, i had 2 clients to see in the first place. so i planned for only 2. But one of the client suddenly said that she is not coming, so ignoring that part I apparently deleted that part out from my brain and forget all the things that i had to do with this client. Suddenly, in the afternoon my supervisor said that she is coming for her appointment. Then we apparently panic because she had not really taught me the skills of handling babies. But ended up it is alright!! so i had to do the documentation to do for 2 cases. It was so shag for me!! my shoulders are hurting so much because i sort of use my muscles to support the children. AND knowing that i had long head biceps inflammation, it becomes worse and now, i cannot type or do anything above my shoulders as it will hurt.

Yep!! tomorrow, i am going out with my friend!!

Things to do by today:
1. 2 documentation
2. 1 patient report
3. planning of activities for my 2 clients tomorrow
4. planning activities for my mid evaluation
5. CRD to do

haha! part of the work is I added in on my own. Now i am wearing my favourite shirt and typing in front of the computer. there is so many things to do...haha! but it is a miracle, i am not feeling stress any more... but just i am feeling very happy now. that so weird. but any way, doing assessment seems to be more and more common, except that i need to be quick with my thinking and be more decisive with my results. it is not that i does not wan to be decisive, is that i do not wan to give a wrong result to the client and it won't be fair to them!! but anyway, i need more pracitice and i am catching my friends at attachment place to do assessment and treatment on them. haha! it is a sort of a torture to them cos they felt tired after 5 mins, haha! but it will train on their trunk! IT IS ALL FOR THEIR OWN GOOD... haha! kept laughing cos i gave my sup a fright!! haha! and i think my face turn red, i think i really don't want to live and give her a fright. haha!! so funny! life should always remain happy as it is, shouldn't it be like that

smile no matter what, as long as you treat ppl with sincerity and a true heart, a heart willing to care and give in, you will remain happy forever!!! smile everyone!

haha! just fell in love with this necklace once i saw it!! but of cos, it is just an image only.

yesterday is my last day for tuition. it ended very peacefully and the session went quite well. as usual, my kid and i were laughing like mad from the start to the end. i think i will miss seeing her and torturing her every week with flooding maths and science questions for her to do. she just show me her prelims results, her results improve from failing 3 subjects to only 2 and her maths instead of a U is a E now. haha! so happy when i see it. But at least she make some improvement in her grades, am i right!!! haha! and i think after the tuition lesson, she ought to get herself a sticker book as she was flooded with stickers all from me and her bro. her bro told her that he saw me before, but i just couldn't recognise him!! after all, i have a quite a common face, i guess.

this week 2 clinical pass on with a terrible ending!! i dun feel like thinking about it anymore, cos i just live in denial, just hope that i will not remind at all. every clinical, this thing happen...it is so irritiating. never mind, i shall look forward, after i am a very happy girl!! haha! and i am just a simple simple student, never mind, if it is not destined to be mine, it wouldn't be mine. just work hard for it, that what i really wanted. I have a nice sup, i am quite happy with it, no matter what the ending is, i will just carry on LIVING. after all, that's not the end. being happy and healthy is the nicest thing in the world. seriously need a time out and got to go out today, have a walking trail again!!! just need to finish typing out notes and research and planning 5 activities and i am done!!

Being so optimistic everyday, haha! cos i am so used to spread my unhappiness around le!! so my heart felt so light now!!

Haha! I once promise myself that i must be happy everyday, no matter what happen... however, it just seems quite a hard thing. though, i manage to keep a smile on my face, by laughing at the past events and my silly act. though, i really hope that i can master the skills of helping people but ...it seems like a hard thing, though i really know that i need years and lots of practice to do it. Never the least, i just hope to continue.. as i tends not to give up easily cos i need to conquer everything before i really can move on in my life~ that my philosophy, unless i am really having a breakdown.

and 2 of my friends are having birthday this week. and my dear kid is having psle this week!! and i got to give her last minute preparation... rar and i could not go for the meeting up with friends. hope that sat, i can go for another night walking trail. but there is so many things to do!! and my stomach is now growling for food. and it is now only 4 plus doing clinical documentation, still left with 1.5 doc to do. and planning for the kid. hahaha! i need some sleep.

yesterday, I really felt like crying and I got a shock...was in a blank yesterday. cried on Tuesday because I felt that I really cannot make as a therapist. But in the end, after speaking to my mummy... I just continue on to see first. Though I have plans on what I wanted to do after quitting this course, but whether I am able to get into the course is still a question mark. So i have to preserve on. at least for this week, and really let me seriously considered about my future.

right, back to thursday, I lost control and haha... I don't know whether I am able to speak out here... so haha! but I lived in anxiety and shock in the afternoon. So exhausted especially when i only have the 7-11 food. plus a drink. So hungry... in order to replenish my energy, I got to eat more from now onwards. and I promise myself that I will always remain a smile forever...haha! But at least there is an improvement, at least I am still able to laugh or smile at her though my heart feel like crying and my tears almost flows out. So remaining happy is the best medicine cos one will never know when they will die... always remain happy and positive and just do your work... as long as you tried your best to do it, no matter how bad or good results will be...as least you can tell yourself that you have tried and it is just the destiny or your memory or skills or knowledge that is not up to the criteria or expectation.

But at least you have tried...so smile like me. haha! at least now , whenever i go I always suddenly laugh...perhaps just a way of relieving stress and smile at those funny things. Oh my god, and i started to open up after exposing to little kids, though i am still quite quiet during attachment. But at least, I am happy...

Got to do 2 planning but i did not really know their case well. Really hope that my document that i did over the nights and the planning and finding resources for today activities and the 2 treatment session that i am carrying out today will be fine... after all, i won't die if i did badly only i just had to say good bye. so hope that i get rid of my timid character and bring up the courage that i had when i climb the rocks. and ...having the constant thought of having the best for my patient, i will tried my best. smileZ

My favourite music and it is playing in the radio!! loved it
today is friday and sat, i WILL DO MY BEST TO DO THE 2 ASSESSMENT =)

xIaNgJun
the joy is always in you, find it and always smiles.

there are so many things happening in this week! ha ha! today, we just had our class picnic! it was so fun=) kites was flying all over the place at marine barrage and food was available and drinks too! just as YEP, we played Monopoly... it was so fun, pairing up. though cancer and Scorpio can never be together playing monopoly!! ha ha! SO SLOW...

It was a fun day and i am really too tired to write anything at all. Just to share my happiness with everyone, tuition kid 's maths jumped from 13 marks to 29 marks. MORE than 100%. haha! 100% that so great, though it is not a good grade considering that she did not pass at all. but more than 100%, ha ha! and she gave me a bookmark and a MR small key chain.=)

smiles! need to buy 4 glass bottles, to put my newly bought stars and swans=) and maybe a laptop bag too. should I buy? Ha ha! hope tomorrow is a nice day. got to read up my notes at least book 2 starting by TODAY. and still left with assessment...

The weather forecast today is: sunny in the afternoon, about to rain near midnight

this 2 week was quite a busy week. My supervisor reply on Monday, which means that we will get to know what we requires to study for our attachment. So many things to read up...

6 sept (Monday) : after exam, we had thai express. ate the glass noodles plus the fish. quite nice and not exactly hot. but quite uncomfortable for my stomach which is so use to taking porridge during the exams

tues: i think i had a buffet at sakura! taste quite okay, but it is quite cheap for 12.90 nets. went to balestier to have it and walk quite a while

wed: stay in the library, and watching tv all the way

thurs: went to meet my friends at JP. and we had KFC. haha! NICE...

fri: i forget where did i go! most likely should be slacking at home

sat: had a super long walk, sort of get lost at the helix bridge area, and reaches home only at 10 plus!! haha

sun: spent a day at my ah ma house watching mio tv. SHIOK!!

Monday: was busy watching the variety show, there are so many episodes! till i haven't finish it now

Tuesday: I have been sleeping at home and slacking, watching Tv Programme

Wednesday: I had Porridge Buffet and I finish parts of my Notes. Hurray (went for tuition)

Thursday: Too tired, slacking again!! (went for tuition)

Friday: went out with the poly clique, but too bad, we did not get to have picnic=) but instead, we had board games at Minds. quite cheap for this time round. (went for tuition)

Sat: went to my friends' house to give her tuition and study the LLD book, but instead, i fell asleep. and after that met another one and we walk all the way from Clarke station (look at the lanterns and food, wanted to buy, but there are too many ppl) and walk along the singapore river and saw the merlion and continue to esplanade, joining in the celebration and continue , passing by the F1 race track and continue to helix bridge, passing by the shopping mall, to the highway and get lost somewhere at raffles place.

Sun: woke up early in the morning, and met friend in the lib to get some notes and study... but ended up, i felt that we chatted more than we study=). During lunch, it was funny. Met a ITE lecturer and he talked all the way with us while we are busy eating. wonder what star sign he is?
went to my grandma house and watch tv and slept till quite late=)

Tomorrow: had to go to school and eat sakae buffet!! haha! eat 3 buffet in less then 3 weeks... fattening haha!! which means i only eat one meal tomorrow. and had to go tuition again

things to finish studying before tues: which is sadly to say tomorrow!
: must read the assessment for occupational therapy for children, the LLD BOOK (half way through), Play and school notes (half way), and the assessment book...and yup (learning contract- but after tues) so many to read=)

what a super nice day, i have today

my sunflower blooms le=)

my first steamegg that i made! delicious... so now, i know how to cook maggi, hashbrown, nuggets, cook half-boil egg, and steam egg=)

haha! this is so cute!! Attachment result is out. It happened so suddenly when I was checking mail around 4 pm and i was so happy that the attachment was not out yet. But when i am facebooking at 6pm, suddenly saw sheena's message that about BURNs. that point, with a heavy heart, i went to hotmail to see where I am attached to. it is a heart thumping experience...

I had my long- awaiting pepper lunch express today! and i found out that the dress that i wanted to buy isn't what i expected to be. SO i did not purchase it! what a relief!


went to tiong, bugis, followed by chinatown to see the fair and the lighting! resting at the bus stop, cos our legs are breaking!! photo taking session!

and i bought a book of sticker for my kid too! Overall, the day seems to be perfectly nice! but I am still feeling very sad, though i did not really show out. wanted to binge on some food but realise that my ice cream in the fridge is gone! wanted to ask others out but realised that the timing for buffet is only limited to some of my friends! and they are not free! so sad! if my mood did not change for the better tomorrow! i shall eat buffet alone by MYSELF.

my attachment is going to start soon, i guess! hopefully! and anxious to know where i am going, most likely the notice will be coming out tomorrow! what is the best time to get this shock? I really hope that this time, there will not be any mistake and errors make by me... cos I REALLY WANTED TO DO A GOOD JOB. the last test...

hoho! I wanted to eat long John sliver long ago. Miss it so much, especially the new recent combo only $4.10=)

haha! can you see the lighten up in red...that's the bridge! the new bridge (helix bridge). quite nice, but the place was not really develop yet so there are still quite a lot of construction going around there. and it is super crowded. It is hard to get a spot where there is no one at all. and we got quite lost in a shopping centre near-by, which sell branded stuff... and we spent like about 1 hour walking around it. Felt like my lower limbs are breaking into parts, like walking a few Km. Feeling hungry and thirsty after walking=)

haha! VAL miss you , so crop you in! haha!

haha! have so much fun taking neoprints. It has been a long time taking neo prints, though there is very little designs available for us to choose...but it is equally fun for me!!=)

the fun process that we are involved in...




smilez. wanted to take more photos but found out that i did not slot any memory card into my camera!!BLUR #__________#

my plant is blooming...tomorrow, I have to JP. Shopping, hurray just to release my unhappiness for today.

hoho! can't imagine that I spent my 2nd day of holiday in the library. Wanted to have a relaxing day but was awaken by some dreams, i supposed because I couldn't remember anything at all. I just felt that my heart was bouncing and till now I still did not really manage to cool down. There is some sort of fear which still tingles around my heart... and I just wanted to comfortably enjoy my online drama series but in the end, the internet in my house was sort of not in use today so I am now happily stuck in the national library to watch my tv series. But it is quite bored in the library, sitting in a corner and using the internet. How come everyone is staying so far away from me and most of them have either school or examination, so IRRITATING.

It was sort of a busy day yesterday. Very happily managed to watch tv till about 1 pm without any disturbances from my family to ask me to go to bed, and I managed to wake up at 10 plus with good and nice sleep...Packed my whole room and clear my closet... and i manage to watch some of the drama that I was thinking about it during my examination days. and went to bugis to return some books too. But I am still thinking whether I should buy the dress or not!!! Because I will only wear it for a few times, I suppose...But I think I want it badly, shall go back and see next time round...

Today, I am having tuition again...=) what a long long day...!!

ha ha! just finally manage to pack finish my clothing. I just finally realized that I had really too many clothing. Some of the clothing, especially those that i had bought the previous occasions...I only wore once or at most twice. Usually i will just stuck to my school Pe t-shirt, regardless at home, or in school or even in my sleep. Time to stop buying clothes and I should save up money too...

and just too many pants...but I only prefer to wear a few. Because not all of them are as comfortable as they look.
and just realize that I had too many bags... to me, it is considered as a lot because I had to think of which one to bring out. so I prefer to have only one bag pack and sling bag. But always can't resist the temptation to look at bag and buy it home.

and I have too many sneakers, most of them are new shoes... I will just have to stuck to just one pair of shoes and wear till it spoiled. Hurray...

In conclusion, I had to SAVE UP and SPENT LESS... to reach my target...=)

fever for the past few days. can't really talk now. if not i will cough non-stop...perhaps i have not blog for a long time... feel like writing something.=)

can't stop watching:

http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/F72o24141G0/

this few days, there are a lot of happenings. Firstly, the good thing... 2 people are 20 and 22 years old respectively

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, WEIZHEN and ALAN

and this few days, i am so poor. Cos i have to save up to buy things that i wanted to buy long long ago and my tuition is almost coming to an end...

and the worst things is that i admitted that i have not been working hard this few days or even weeks. perhaps, i have been thinking about too much things. i know that man should always look forward... but what eventually come out from one's mouth does not mean that one is able to do the thing at all. have you ever had that kind of experiences?

it feels like no matter how much words and how convincing you are in convincing your friends this and that... but when it comes to your own things, even if you set a goal or an aim to pursue, it lies within whether you are motivated to complete the task that you once set for yourself. ( why do i feel like i am using Moho, but why i did not write this in report x____x). it seems like a different thing when you tried to convince others and when you convince yourself...

but anyway, saying out is better than keeping it to yourself. haha! but i rather keep it to myself and tried to sort out my own thoughts. COS I BELIEVE THAT NO ONE'S WORDS HAS THE ABILITY TO CHANGE ONESELF, EXCEPT YOUR OWN BELIEFS AND THOUGHTS.

Anyway, time to really mug all the way. hope that i will be able to resist the temptation of the remote control and television programme. but anyway, only 2 more videos to finish, why not finish it first...=)

back to the same old me again. 2 days left

this is my 180 post...
actually i got a lot of things that i wanted to say, but just can't put it into words

got super irritated, when i was woken up from my sleep by many telephone calls... because of food. especially i had nightmare this few days so i had to sleep in the afternoon at least 2 hours too. and in the end, those who called... got sort of scolded by me. So sorry! I am too sleepy and tired and i want to sleep. and in the end, got sort of guilty and went back to help those who called me. But i keep on nagging and complaining... sorry for that. if my hand phone ring, it is still alright cos it is quite near to me and i don't need to walk so far to pick up the phone... at most I will just ask who you are...*____________________*

sorry for those who called including my best friend st, and my neighbour who bought me food!!