hope that it will be a nice next week!!

Life is not as straight as it looks. all we can do is to try our very best in everyday life. OH my god, I think i am getting mad. cos i felt that my words made sense now=')

I am feeling so hungry now. Because, I have to let my sup check on my CRD by possible today!! so Woke up at 2 plus, and because I need to plan treatment for 2 children... what should i do for that kid. I think i will want to cook maggi mee for myself early in the morning. Ha ha! can't stop feeling happy yet lethargic early in the morning. Being human, one has to happy right, no matter what difficulty we face. Though the events that we face in attachment may not be of the best scenario to some of us, but i believe that there are always people to assist us and guide us along the way. I still can remember that i think i impress the examiner by stating this sentence ' i believe that whatever the teacher did it is all for our own good regardless how boring the lesson is'. ha ha! this sentence is not meant to shoot the teachers, but i sincerely believe that the things that they did now is all for our own good. Truthfully, i believe that teachers truly meant to help us.

just realize that i really like stars a lot, as the window, my foam board and my wall is covered with stars. or at least there is some stars presence. I don't know what to say, but since yesterday i felt very moody. thought can go out for a walk this afternoon. but my friend is too busy and she is flooded with lots of work, so it is better not to disturb her and drag her out. Next week, i will drag her out if possible. hope that aust friend will come back and we can go out together once again. When one grows up, one will tend to miss the happy times that one had when they are young. I finally see and understand my cousins' feeling when they told me to enjoy the times being in college with your friends. this memories is really very memorable, and i really wanted to treasure them as much as possible. don't know is it because i have been hearing sad songs since Friday, i really felt like crying out loud. but on the other hand, i wanted to rush out my room and watch tv. contradicting right. The worse of it is my MOO MOO is having his nice sweet bath so tonight he can't sleep with me anymore, must wait till he is dry.

Homework:
1. do CRD
2. read up my sup books
3. ABC book and know how to administer it
4. plan for next week clients
5. prepare for PDMS

JIA YOU! everyone=")

ha ha! whenever i see such pictures, i felt that i am more fortunate than many others. when i was a new born baby, a fortune teller told my parents that i can only live till ha ha...not very long. Recently, they told me this... and the best thing that i can only do is to live happily everyday. Since, I have chose this path might as well finish it with a happy heart. Becos, i know that i may regret eventually as why didn't i continue with this path and choose to go back to the starting point. Even though, there are many times where you can't see the end of the road and where is the road going to end. But somehow, one day, you will finish walking the path. though at the end, you may choose to take another different type of racing track after you finish your race. But you can tell yourself that you have already completed the race just like what others did...

I keep telling my friend that if i let the patient fall, i will let him fall on me. and i will pretend to faint... and if i don't think i can take the examination, i will just faint. But i felt that if i will to die now, i wanted to complete the examination or finish walking to the path because i wanted to prove myself right and test the extent to which my abilities can go. I wish that i can be as competent as others, but many people in this world are just not alike... there are many aspects in which you are stronger and others are weaker. to me, i felt that i am a very very ordinary girl with weak muscles and not very strong in my studies, my EQ and IQ is not very high. Whatever, i do i am always slower than others and often clueless...the things that i have now, i gain it through hard work. Though sometimes working hard does not equal to success. But seeing people with happy smile on their face is probably the best thing in the work that i can get. Every happy smile in the world, i hope that when i am gone (don't know when), i can bring these memories along. As for my parents, they hope that i can be as happy as i can be and enjoy everyday...

that the best wishes of every parents and i believe it... since the path had already laid down for you, keep n walking, live your life happy and people around you happy as i will not know the next minute that they will be gone...

Yesterday as i stared from the office into the sky, i saw a heart shape cloud. sort of it!! and they looks like cotton sweets, feel like munching it as i was feeling hungry and very tired. Flooded with documentation, actually not a lot but I have a client report to do cos of one of the assessment that i did beforehand, as most of my friends know that my English is not that fantastic, i really find it very hard to write the report and there is no references for me to follow. Why there is no TYS for documentation?

today, was a total shag day for me!! Actually, i had 2 clients to see in the first place. so i planned for only 2. But one of the client suddenly said that she is not coming, so ignoring that part I apparently deleted that part out from my brain and forget all the things that i had to do with this client. Suddenly, in the afternoon my supervisor said that she is coming for her appointment. Then we apparently panic because she had not really taught me the skills of handling babies. But ended up it is alright!! so i had to do the documentation to do for 2 cases. It was so shag for me!! my shoulders are hurting so much because i sort of use my muscles to support the children. AND knowing that i had long head biceps inflammation, it becomes worse and now, i cannot type or do anything above my shoulders as it will hurt.

Yep!! tomorrow, i am going out with my friend!!

Things to do by today:
1. 2 documentation
2. 1 patient report
3. planning of activities for my 2 clients tomorrow
4. planning activities for my mid evaluation
5. CRD to do

haha! part of the work is I added in on my own. Now i am wearing my favourite shirt and typing in front of the computer. there is so many things to do...haha! but it is a miracle, i am not feeling stress any more... but just i am feeling very happy now. that so weird. but any way, doing assessment seems to be more and more common, except that i need to be quick with my thinking and be more decisive with my results. it is not that i does not wan to be decisive, is that i do not wan to give a wrong result to the client and it won't be fair to them!! but anyway, i need more pracitice and i am catching my friends at attachment place to do assessment and treatment on them. haha! it is a sort of a torture to them cos they felt tired after 5 mins, haha! but it will train on their trunk! IT IS ALL FOR THEIR OWN GOOD... haha! kept laughing cos i gave my sup a fright!! haha! and i think my face turn red, i think i really don't want to live and give her a fright. haha!! so funny! life should always remain happy as it is, shouldn't it be like that

smile no matter what, as long as you treat ppl with sincerity and a true heart, a heart willing to care and give in, you will remain happy forever!!! smile everyone!

haha! just fell in love with this necklace once i saw it!! but of cos, it is just an image only.

yesterday is my last day for tuition. it ended very peacefully and the session went quite well. as usual, my kid and i were laughing like mad from the start to the end. i think i will miss seeing her and torturing her every week with flooding maths and science questions for her to do. she just show me her prelims results, her results improve from failing 3 subjects to only 2 and her maths instead of a U is a E now. haha! so happy when i see it. But at least she make some improvement in her grades, am i right!!! haha! and i think after the tuition lesson, she ought to get herself a sticker book as she was flooded with stickers all from me and her bro. her bro told her that he saw me before, but i just couldn't recognise him!! after all, i have a quite a common face, i guess.

this week 2 clinical pass on with a terrible ending!! i dun feel like thinking about it anymore, cos i just live in denial, just hope that i will not remind at all. every clinical, this thing happen...it is so irritiating. never mind, i shall look forward, after i am a very happy girl!! haha! and i am just a simple simple student, never mind, if it is not destined to be mine, it wouldn't be mine. just work hard for it, that what i really wanted. I have a nice sup, i am quite happy with it, no matter what the ending is, i will just carry on LIVING. after all, that's not the end. being happy and healthy is the nicest thing in the world. seriously need a time out and got to go out today, have a walking trail again!!! just need to finish typing out notes and research and planning 5 activities and i am done!!

Being so optimistic everyday, haha! cos i am so used to spread my unhappiness around le!! so my heart felt so light now!!

Haha! I once promise myself that i must be happy everyday, no matter what happen... however, it just seems quite a hard thing. though, i manage to keep a smile on my face, by laughing at the past events and my silly act. though, i really hope that i can master the skills of helping people but ...it seems like a hard thing, though i really know that i need years and lots of practice to do it. Never the least, i just hope to continue.. as i tends not to give up easily cos i need to conquer everything before i really can move on in my life~ that my philosophy, unless i am really having a breakdown.

and 2 of my friends are having birthday this week. and my dear kid is having psle this week!! and i got to give her last minute preparation... rar and i could not go for the meeting up with friends. hope that sat, i can go for another night walking trail. but there is so many things to do!! and my stomach is now growling for food. and it is now only 4 plus doing clinical documentation, still left with 1.5 doc to do. and planning for the kid. hahaha! i need some sleep.

yesterday, I really felt like crying and I got a shock...was in a blank yesterday. cried on Tuesday because I felt that I really cannot make as a therapist. But in the end, after speaking to my mummy... I just continue on to see first. Though I have plans on what I wanted to do after quitting this course, but whether I am able to get into the course is still a question mark. So i have to preserve on. at least for this week, and really let me seriously considered about my future.

right, back to thursday, I lost control and haha... I don't know whether I am able to speak out here... so haha! but I lived in anxiety and shock in the afternoon. So exhausted especially when i only have the 7-11 food. plus a drink. So hungry... in order to replenish my energy, I got to eat more from now onwards. and I promise myself that I will always remain a smile forever...haha! But at least there is an improvement, at least I am still able to laugh or smile at her though my heart feel like crying and my tears almost flows out. So remaining happy is the best medicine cos one will never know when they will die... always remain happy and positive and just do your work... as long as you tried your best to do it, no matter how bad or good results will be...as least you can tell yourself that you have tried and it is just the destiny or your memory or skills or knowledge that is not up to the criteria or expectation.

But at least you have tried...so smile like me. haha! at least now , whenever i go I always suddenly laugh...perhaps just a way of relieving stress and smile at those funny things. Oh my god, and i started to open up after exposing to little kids, though i am still quite quiet during attachment. But at least, I am happy...

Got to do 2 planning but i did not really know their case well. Really hope that my document that i did over the nights and the planning and finding resources for today activities and the 2 treatment session that i am carrying out today will be fine... after all, i won't die if i did badly only i just had to say good bye. so hope that i get rid of my timid character and bring up the courage that i had when i climb the rocks. and ...having the constant thought of having the best for my patient, i will tried my best. smileZ

My favourite music and it is playing in the radio!! loved it
today is friday and sat, i WILL DO MY BEST TO DO THE 2 ASSESSMENT =)

xIaNgJun
the joy is always in you, find it and always smiles.