I finally found his facebook. But i still do not dare to add him.

i can't do it!!

everyday thinking of it, felt like it will never come to an end, and there won't be an answer to it.

it just that, it seems that everything is piling up. How i wish, time could really take a break and i could do whatever i wanted. I wan to rot on my bed even if it is just a moment. and i have meeting throughout the days and work all over. Later i am off to meet my friends for her birthday buffet. I am super poor now, yet i am happy when i give someone their gifts. But i always selected the wrong gift so that a bit sad when i did not see their smile on their faces...

anyway, i need to focus on my studies and catch up with the results and make sure that i can manage my projects and start on my studies...

pls provide me with the strength. I kept thinking about him, i hope that nightmare will stop soon...

In less than 6 hours, i will be on the bus to KL. My dad scared me with the thumbprint thing that was recently implemented in malaysia checkpoint (which he read online). He said that some people ended up jamming at malaysia and have to go back to singapore, because the machines at the custom are unable to detect their thumbprint. and it often happens to me in singapore, as i had sweaty palms and it's that kind which was quite severe. so it was very hard to detect my thumbprint plus i had sensitive skin, which cause my skin to peal off whenever i got blister due to soap powder. so my lines on my hands are deep and complicated and plus the volar side will turn wrinkled very easily.

I hope that i will be able to pass-by the custom. I really look forward to the trip, though it was not the first time going with my friends to KL. Packing up all the feelings and bringing to KL, hoping to leave everything there and coming back with a better heart, a kinder heart, a braver heart, a courageous heart and a new peaceful heart. Treasuring everyone beside you, no matter how hard or how bad you felt that day, because one day you will know that you will miss them when they are gone...

no matter what they say or do, that make you mad, sometimes making you confused with what was going in their mind, but somehow just follow your instinct and believe in your friends and one day, you might make a difference in their life by providing the trust and concern that they once lost... believe that everyone is kind and they are forever there for you, though sometimes i really wanted to bang their head against the wall. ( for those thinking that i might be talking about u, just relax...i will tell u if i think that line of words should not exist. I dun like to hide things, if i really hide, trust me it is becos of some bad experience that i have in the first place).

Hope X manage to find her job, and get back her money

one of my mid term exam finally ended, I am really very happy that it ended. And the happiest thing is that i will be going on a short trip (3 days 2 nights) to Kuala Lumpur. However, my days at KL, might be flooded with presentation slides and literature papers. I really seriously wondered if i got to bring my Laptop along to KL to do my projects after we spent the whole day shopping.

During the meantime, to the countdown on the days to KL....I am flooded with lots of projects, research and presentation to do. And I got to finish it before I go to KL too, so that my other friends can collate or checked. It just too much work, Moreover I have 2 more projects than my other classmates due to the extra module that i have to do this semester. and one of the projects, only 2 person in a group, and we have to do all. I think that's a lot of work to do. and i am extremely afraid of my play n school team, because i just felt that the combination is weird as it consists really of different extremes of a person's characteristics (dun know whether u will get what i meant though).

and i think i am not going to sleep on monday morning, and i will sleep when i am on the bus, but i will buy food. I am very excited about the trip because i finally can get out of singapore and though it was the 2nd time that i am going to KL. I am really very very happy. Because i am freee of sms free from calls. I am free=)

Just like being in an alien and suck up into the spaceship=)

haha! i finally managed to catch the final episode of Survivor last week. I always fell asleep while waiting for it to start, but finally i managed to watch it. That was one happy incident for me=)

Last last last friday, i went on a steamboat buffet with my friends and apparently, we ended up eating MUSHROOMS...all thanks to Jera who likes to eat mushrooms. I felt that the more you eat at the same shop, the more boring it would get. I ate at the same shop for about 5 times, so it was rather sian and tiring as the food was always the same. Got to try something else instead.

Last week, went with MZ to the seoul garden buffet. I simply loved the ice cream, though we only managed to order once because we did not know that it was the last order. What a pity!! But anyway, Mz thought that it was not that worthwhile. I felt that it was still worth the price because there are still ready cooked food for you and lots of variety of ice cream served to the customer. And most importantly, i manage to crack the cockles' shell and get it out. Failed all the time, so i was very happy and excited in getting it out. Except that i seriously come to a conclusion that, cockles rather get burnt (till it turned black) than to let you eat.

This week, most likely or should i say i am still considering whether to eat buffet for her 21st birthday. I am poor to the max. but I should still go, right?

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I got to lead a healthy lifestyle and finished my work on time. No more acting like a snail, i got to be faster in terms of my working speed. and i am back to wearing my retainers, got to promise myself that. My aunt's voice just rings in my head...can't stop it!!!

I think i must be paranoid to think that i sneeze whenever i see someone. I am sensitive to a certain perfume, can't stop sneezing.