haha! now there is no turning back already! the withdrawl letter is out and i have gotten the reply. quite confused but haha, i still feel quite happy... tomorrow got one of my worst subject examination, on the spot practical! crap shit! i will be shivering like i did NOW. I think i will wake up tonight with a FEver. I am feeling sick and having cough... and tonight there is NO STARS... where is my stars? I think i am talking crap after drinking a very thick coffee so bitter but so Cool!
ya, i got a shock. saw hsin ming in my school today! she suddenly appear in front of me, got a very short chat and went off to eat! hope to talk more but she seems to going to play basketball, haha!!! Examination is coming soon. and it seems i am going to MISS JER's birthday again!! later they sit flyer never tell me!!!
JIA YOU EVERYONE!! NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN THINK OF ME, I WILL ALWAYS BE BEHIND YOU FOR YOU TO REACH OUT TO ME AND SUPPORT EACH OTHER!!! HAHA!!
WHEN YOU SEE THE STARS, LOOK OUT FOR MY STAR- IT WILL ALWAYS BE ABOVE UR HEAD!!

make ur wish come true- FLY THE BALLOON UP THE STARS WITH UR WISH, PROMISE IT WILL COME TRUE, come TRUE for me twice le!! MIRACLE DO HAPPEN... I ALWAYS BELIEVE...

haha! finally a big stone is placed down, i think!!
i have finally typed out the letter for my ntu withdrawl. but before i post it into the bin or sent it out by mail. i am still having uncertain thoughts about it. though i really like occupational therapy, i am still a very slow learner in which i need to put a lot of effort in things. if i did not put enough effort, here i am getting this type of results that i have NOW in NYP. don't know why!! but i really like this course, perhaps it is the friends that are always beside me ba!! ANd I REALLY DREAM OF WORKING IN INSTITUTE OF MENTAL HEALTH. that is damn cool!! i want to go there, because i think i have a really very different mindset as others, so perhaps i will find somewhere where there are people of the same kind as me. I hope that i can safely pass this course and i can go there to work, though i may not be able to go to overseas university because my results is so LOUSY. but i will try hard for it after all!!!

hope that i can post the letter safely into the post box tomorrow.
so many things to study and i still got my general paper to take. seriously , i think my teacher give up hope!! never mind, i am call "hope" and i believe tmr will be a better day!! I WILL WORK MY WAY OUT!

oh crap meat! i hope that i can stay awake tonight...and i dont want to sleep!!
just gurp a cup of thick coffee, yet when i reach home, tooo glad to even sleep...
this few days, too much to do le!! but dont know why i dont feel upset or unhappy. even in school, i still feel very happy. perhaps i havent see my examination results yet. sometimes really feel that i should not be in this school, yet i couldn't bear to leave my friends. though it is only a few months passed, i feel that i really like my course, though i have to overcome so many things. but if i really leave, i think i will miss mz's suaning, yx's smile like a camel, yl's optimistic, charlotte's gd eng, sl's weird laughter, wz's smilez, still got a lot of people lah!!
haha! i think when i am typing all this, i think i am most awake now!. so i can go and study le!!
jia you... hohoho!!
live life to the fullest!! look forward, move ur right leg, loading, hands on leg, leg shift leg, grip the knees, hand on clavicle...
haha!!

haha! i knew i should not be blogging now...studying should be on my mind.
yet, as i was facing the tv with my books, all my mind is on harry potter, shaolin monk last episode, and f4 garden show. i hope that i will gain to be my decisive, since i knew from the start that i have the final answer to the question...yet, lacking of courage to pursuit it... and now, my eyes are still here... i have to learn learn.
i got the zhang dong liang song leh...latest album from my dearest SQ. hope you manage to get ur bags and clothing from the sales. i really like the latest album, it is super nice and to my personalities.

although, one may meet many failure on a day...as long as you think of the people beside you, all will seems not an obstacle to you...just smilez and face the day. after all, it will be a new day again...