this few days, have a lot of thoughts of... lots of frustration and really felt like crying. It is not really frustration but lots of decision to make and lots of things that make me so confused that i simply do not understand.  My boss asked me if i wanted to continue to stay in the centre, and I agreed to stay after a few days of considerations as well as asking my other colleagues on the scenarios that might happen...

Talking to lots of people online... strangers indeed...people that I do not know at all.... from different walks of life. It is really interesting to talk to them. But after talking for a few months, I realised that I was addicted to talking to strangers online. Perhaps, when you are talking to them online, you are not restricted to the content and somemore you did not need to care about how they think about you... just chat all the way. Was simply too addicted and though manage to finish my report on time. But I still felt that I could do better... this upcoming report which was due in 16 July. I am going to try to complete by this week. Therefore, I decided to stop my internet for awhile and concentrate... seriously thinking everything and what I am going to do... is it still indulge myself in the virtual world which does not have any end in it... or concentrate on my stuff.

After thinking for a long time without internet, I realise that I do not need them at all. I know what is important to me and I know what I wanted.