friday!!
having the ot outing at west coast park from the early morning, where the sun is not even out yet...to the late afternoon. when i get home, i slept my way through till i was waken by a call to meet my dearest friends. i want to sleep, but in the end i ate my first subway meal and we end about walking along the tiong bahure park. i hate walking at night where they are not many people. but it still fun walking with friends too...

sat!!!
i cant even study after yesterday due to my overwhelming laziness and tireness. so again i was waken by a morning call but this time is another friend. because we had some volunteering work and she wanted me to wake up...gee!!! but she ended up speaking to my dad to ask me to wake up!!shiok as she got a shock too. at the amazing race, walking for about 3hrs and 30 mins. we was ask to stop due to a drizzle. that good! beause the last station was a "worst worst" station. meeting our guardian angel was quite fun after all, he gives us hint, but apparently none of us caught it!! so we ended up the 2nd last group but that good despite that our group consists of mostly girls, the youngest, and the most innocent ones!!!
we got quite a lot of group photos too!!
it is afterall a nice day, but i ended up sleeping till this hour. at see it is 11.07, i just wake up!!
i need to study study. and i decided not to go out anymore unless there is something nice and sweet out there for me to search!!

haha! yesterday is a very fun day.
rushing time again, for the igaps volunteering work at ah ma's house.
she is shifting house but on the same floor... but it is from one corner to another. quite lame but there is a lot of work to do. but practically, we get to listen to her story and see a lot old photos of her.. for the furniture part, of course must rely on the guys. gee! but we help to move those mini things and help to accompany the old lady.
but i was stoning the whold time when i have nothing to do, especially i was told to look after things in case get stolen...too tired to do anything.
haha! from the morning waking up at 7 plus then rushing out to the mrt, taking a bus trip, finally reaching the place, moving a lot of things, meeting a lot of new people, doing a lot of listening, playing with the toliet, eating our lunch , doing a lot of funny stuff, finally taking the photos, talking a lot of thoughts, finally going home. which is around 4. taking a bus home, sleeping with my mouth wide open. reaching home about 5 plus. too tired to do anything. and eat and sleep and watch tv, doing almost nothing last night
conclusion...
it is a very fun experience, but i did not a kiss from the ah ma...sad ah!!!
but as long as doing an effort to help people, just warmth the hearts of others as well as seeing a smile on their face, everything seems to be the nicest part in the world. i have a lot of things to do during the holidays, wonder how i am going to finish my hundred pages of anatomy notes plus hundreds plus of textbook notes... still got a lot of volunteering activites next sat and fri too. plus project on wed and thurs...
haha! perservance and optimistic is the key towards success...

starting on human anatomy soon but still left with a lot of physiology tutorial and quiz and slides to do. i think time is not enough for me. and i have to watch tv or i will be screaming like someone did between in his studies...lol!!! LETS US ALL HANG ON!

a fun day at the cp place! i woke up late at 7.48 and i have to rush down to pasir ris by 8.30. i think i am almost late for everything after i ended my jc life, especially for school this few months. i call and call to ask people to help me to take extra things down becos I RUSH AND FORGET TO TAKE EVERYTHING... haha! in the end i was late but i still manage to reach the place safely with the team. we started our adventure of cleaning the weelchairs. in the end, Yl and i only manage to clean 2 wheelchair the whole morning and doing some pushing. IT IS NOT THAT WE ARE SLOW, IS THAT OTHERS ARE MUCH FASTER AND WE HOPE THAT THE CHAIR SHINES IN THE SUN...gee!
it is so fun to with a group of friends doing this type of things. BUT i got a test coming, in exchange i think my results will be rotten. so here i am trying my best to blog and I SHOULD BE STUDYING NOW. tomorrow, having upon to pay 50 cents to YX, return MZ lame quiz book. BRING RAGS FOR mz and yx and her bro PLUS mz SHIRT. I AM BEING CHEATED TO DO ANOTHER VOLUNTEERING WORK. but i cant admit that i dont like to miss out the fun. Haha! AND TOMORROW WILL be at toa payoh, cleaning someone house and moving it!AND CAN U IMAGINE MOVE HOUSE TO ANOTHER UNIT of the same floor. haha! i m out to make others happy. i must make the ah ma smile tomorrow.
though FRANKLY speaking, everyday i am filled with homework and projects, but as compared to last time i really feel very happy and practically i dont understand what i am studying!!! but i really feel contented but i have to pass this 2 major exam no matter what. PROVE TO MYSELF THAT I HAVE THE CALIBRE TO CONTINUE THIS COURSE.

hohoho! live everyday like CHRISTMAS. and i just receive my english posted venue. what m i going to do! i havent start yet... and yep! i just bought a doreamon soft toy and it is my first doreamon...in my life! for just 3 dollars but it is 2nd hand quite big too! haha! too glad to be true...
now i am left with tiger,dragon and i can have the 12 zodiac le( soft toys plus a cat=doreamon) too=)

there is a big big wall in my heart. now, it hurts so much. my head hurts. heart hurts. shoulder hurts. everywhere in the world seems no place for me to go, due to my laziness. i really hope that someone words will aspire me. but there is none. yet their encouragement do give me some sense of presence and happiness. arghhhharghhh! feel like scolding someone instead...
i want to go swimming, this is rare words from someone who dont like to swim at all.
i am tired though i sleep extremely early. yet i think this is the anxiety that cause my troubled feelings.
i want to visit the place again to seek my peace in life!!!

when the stars are all gone, all you can see is a black sky. but there will still be a day when the sun will come out and the clouds will clear. as long as you carry this determination with you and a hope, you will find the peace and the hope that you wanted in life. no matter what we do, someone will be waiting at the ending, for you to meet him or her. it is only whether you have the courage to move on...

i m like dead meat now! have to study, study , study. yet, when i touch the books... the television will be once on again! i am so so disappointed with myself.
i m dead meat. holidays are projects, books and events. i think i can hardly go out. instead, i dont feel like going out at all. i am so tired! every minute i feel like sleeping is the best,especially it is the best with mr cow just beside me.

arghhh! i hope to go escape and shout my lungs out! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!
survey survey! my heart just got survey!..stupid pig! stupid cow! stupid dog, stupid mankind, stupid creator! everyone in the world are stupid including me!

why do they have to break up in the first place. stupid show! why do the guy have to act so cool! to attract her attention? it is so irritating! luckily the girl is very straightforward and full of courage! or he will not be able to find his true love again!!!

irritated by the movie!
a angry man is a man whom u step will be a volcano...

i am feeling so unhappy today! apparently, there is a big dark cloud above my head. feeling so upset due to certain reasons...(actually , it started the day before), makes my day felt even worse. i am so upset... i dun feel like saying anythings after pouring my sorrows to someone le!
talking about it, makes me think about it and makes it even worse...
i just hope that the holidays will come soon and i will feel much better tomorrow!
today, the uni package was being deliver to my house. i don't know what to do with it as i still do not have any answer with me now. i was feeling guilty of occupying a space. but as what my friends said, think about your own future again and after that i was tinking that some people also do appeal too...
i just feel like beating my cow and complete all my projects tasks by today. i just came home and i finish my macdonalds on the train... first time that i illegally eat those things picture on the signs of the mrt station.
tomorrow, i have a presentation to go through...
i am like totally exhausted, though i really enjoyed the company of my friends in the school. FOR our course only, i really feel great about it.
confusion should be my name now...
I hate it >_______________0

when thesky once turn dark, i believe that there is someone in theworld which is leaving us...
depleting the populations on earth.
there is always one time in which everyone have to face death and suffering.
i once ask my parents, is it better to have long life but it is full of regrets or having a short life but u will not have any regrets.
their answers are being healthy and having regrets are just parcel of life. things that u will never avoid! but my answer is... i am not so sure of myself either.
i am more on a indecisive person as there is seldom things that i really wanted or need! even so... i may consider for a long long time, till the thigs or person is not with u anymore...
catching up with what u really wanted, may be very very hard. but as long as you have the determination, you will be able to do it.
i hate to catch up to buses and i wanted to go slowly at my own pace. but the buses are just opportunities. i ask myself that why not try to run after the bus for once, you will neve know when the opportunities will arise once more for you. it may be hard during the process. yet, it may be very fulfilling for one, and you will gain more than what you really wanted in some ways...
i finally understand the meaning! yet, i need to find the determination once more...


sometimes, in life we may see this numbers when you look up at the clock! so what do this numbers means!!!
time analysis(lame):
1.11: someone is looking at you
2.22: time to eat something again
3.33: dont look in the mirror, you may see something
4.44: someone is hating you
5.55: time to meet your dearest one and say i love you
11.11: someone is msssing you

hohoho! after a week of lessons and projects, here comes the weekend.
yet, it doesn't seems so free at all. Apparently, i had not had the time to do anything during the whole weekend, fri and sat! FRi, i was planning to study at night! but i ended up sleeping after a few pages and receiving complaints from my mother! on Sat, it is even worse. i woke up early in the morning to do volunteering work at tampiness, but it is quite fun after all! after that, i went to celebrate my friends birthday. but i left much earlier due to some reasons. and i kept myself busy with food at home and i fell asleep! without studying. today, i promise not to watch tv and study hard, must at least study:
1. physiology till blood group+ textbooks
2.human anatomy finish tissues chapter
3. be an organized person( pack books upon sleeping)
4. finish my online project meeting

upon finish all this in one day, i will feel very satisfied!
hope i manage to complete this!
armstrong is coming back soon, i wonder what will happen next!

hohoho! today, i bought a super big cow about my waist lenght tall.
i am so super happy, MR COW.
haha! i have to learn how to make balloon by tmr