shooting stars

yesterday, was very sad jus dont know why perhaps today and tomorrow got a lot test total four average 2 tests per day... wanting to mug
and yes i did study but strangely i jus fail to get the confidence that i wan to get good grades
and ya indeed today tests s***s , the test pratically looking at the paper is not difficult but the real problem is i forgot all the formula, i really did not prepared myself too well this time...
sad to say.
our class came a new english teacher cum form teacher i think
she looks very fierce and we cannot talk in class , perhaps in reality is not wat we see
she is a new teacher and perhaps she is also feeling nervous too and she hardly smilz. our ms june left the j2 level and went to teach the j1, miss her so much ...

today at last, 2 test is over but i knew i will not score as well as my friends.
but no wonder others say,
comparing the effort that others put in and u put in, one really deserve the marks that they get.
and comparing one's score really make one really very mad... ya that's true
so now my goal is to get to the NUS and fufill my goal in life at the school, going NTU also can...
tomorrow got 2 other tests, jia you oh xiangjun
yesterday, my form teacher give us a few lines and tell us to draw anything
i drew a person sitting on the wheelcahir looking in the sky and a shooting star passing by...
what did i really mean or wat is behind my drawing can someone say out the answer in my heart?

too sensitive

i keep hearing my name today in class...wat are they talking about
perhaps i m too sensitive...got a lot of homework havent complete yet.
and i m still writing craps here now , wat should i do now...
since my friend make a list of her best friend on her blog
i will also make one to show how u all are place a position in my heart...
actually dont know what to write
the no. are not in order ...did i write this before
all of u named here are one of my best friends ok...

ah man : a girl who is crazy and cute ...always never fail to cheer me up when i m feeling sad...
everytime get bully by me...becos of xx incidents. she can talk a lot while i m a listener
hearing about her funny incident is a joy to me and she always hear my troubles when i m feeling sad and she dont mind talking to me long hours on phone becos it is free...

huiting: a girl who is lame and we both like to suan each other.. together with her, the coldness is extremely strong. she is also considered quite talkative too and she likes to go shopping . i like to hear her story and i wan to do some horrible thing on her hair when i become a hairstylist.

valerie: a sweet girl , behave like a big sister in sec, teaches me maths
but i never fail to make her mad and angry becos of my hot temper sitting beside me may appear to be a danger to her and irritating... a easily forgiven person and she likes to eat a lot of food, hope to go out with her and jeraldine during holiday and take neoprinTS

jeraldine: a clever chap and now in acjc... long time never see her since holiday, miss them so much . she also like to suan ren almost anyone from quest like to do that . joy could be found within her words and she can keep looking at u when u eat food ...got influenced by her ...a nice friend and sweet too

haozhao : a very very nice girl who keep thinking about others, caring and she is a very nice friend who really teaches me how to treat ur friends well. with her, feeling veri secure but i m not lesbian . she is very hardworking and carries a positive attitude, holiday meet her once but both are very busy and she is living at woodlands so hardly meet. a nice friend one would wish to have

shaoting: the longest best friend i have since pri 3 , she is kind and pretty got a lot of suitors. and she got a boy-friend now so lesser time to go out with her. luckily her aunt staying near my house so during holiday, whenever both of us are free we will go out, she likes to hold hands when we go ...dont hit me when u read this. although time passes but we still have something to talk about .

all 6 of my best friends have different character , and we will always remain the bestest of the friend i know dont have this word ok.
best frienz forever

yog not equal to yoga minus a

went to the yog...
got seperated with other people from our class at the audience seat.
becos my friends wan to sit at another corner...
so coincidentally that my friend wants me to move in to the other corner so other audience can come to the row to seat...
then i was seating beside my secondary classmates
a lot of students like him loh then my friend who was sitting beside me tells me that her friend like this guy...previously my another friend tell me, a friend also like this guy and was like sticking to him...
sitting beside him was a danger, fearing of getting beaten up by the girls...just joking only
our country is protected by law and justice and sitting at padang was facing the supreme court...
waited at padang to hear the news , quite fun can hear diya and darren and hady live show
...not quite worried about my sch spa becos still got 3 hours to study when get back home
so take the moment to enjoy myself loh...
at the moment of 0705 they annouced the winner
singapore
the place was like mad...people was using the spray to spray around
my friends say wan to go home early in case got jam at the mrt
i miss the red and white snowflake so disappointing nm next time go to snow city n play but need $$ =)
chatted with my friend on the bus through the phone becos she got mio plan so she dont mind calling me
the bus ride was like so sianz throughout loh...but reaches home at about 0830 quite fast
prepare everything then starts to study at about 0900
my class go for supper leh...but mummy got cook i also wan to go but i dont eat burger king
ah regretted... the next day in a rush lack of sleep and forgot to bring wallent and need to rush back home to take ...argghhhh...

FD: never start to hate someone or whatever she or he do it is a eye sore to u
put urself in other shoes and the answer is u will not like it

dont know wat to say

looking at ppl blog very fun can type message on this
but blogging at one blog is veri veri sianz
today jus got the chem spa trial...
i was so scared becos everytime passes the time for handing up of work
this time though i did a sloppy job
but i think still ok ...la
but too bad, my yield of solid is like onli 14 %
damn low loh...my friends got at least at 40%
ok that's all tomorrow is my friend yan ru birthday
so
"happy birthday"! yanru!
i m going out now so good bye

feeling anger

ahahah...jus now talk to my mummy at a loud voice...
but not quarrel lah
feeling very angry but not becos i talk to her at a loud voice
ah ah ah i feeling so useless
wat should i do wat should i do
tomorrow got activity can skip pe i m so happi happi happi
yoyoyoyo
contraditing feelings...jus like me

school...

yoyoyo..phy spa finally finished
i was feeling quite upset at the period after spa
jus feel that my heart was quite empty and wishes to be alone
so i left my friends and went to the grandstand to be alone
last time in scondary sch whenever i m feeling upset
i will hide in the lib at one of the corner of the shelves to look at the scenary
that's was so usual that all my friends knew where i went whenever i m missing in action...
finally so many days have passed an di got my internet connection back
it can b considered as a relief as well as a suffering
both actually

dont actually know what to write since i have not written for a long long time
and thanx and goodbye
tomorrow our school got the so called youth olympics
and apparently the whole class is going
onli left with hsin ming and guozheng
i guess...we just sit at the "pandan" stadium and look at them ..duty is just to be a guest
sianz... bybye

thoughts

jus at thoughts of going to the library
here i m in the lib i bought my books along but yet for an hour and half i m still online instead down to my books
but strangely , my friendwho is beside me apparently we did not agree to meet wit
end up sitting at the same table
later about 2 plus i will be at my friends house playing and looking at her new mio plan
my father just return cancel the internet as he wans to change to starhub plan
so dont have internet that the reason y i m in the lib now
today is one of my classmates birthday and the guys are probably celebrating for him
thinking about this year which is the last year for our two year class07s17...
time passes fast and as soon as we know it our a level will soon arrive at our doorstep.
fear arrives
this year valentine day, it is jus a normal day for me...
but wat happens to be exciting is hearing the story of my friend and his so-called guy friend
receiving sms from my other friends in other school is also a joy too...
and wanting to say happy friendship day...
every year when we leave school is jus a new beginning for us
people keep changing their taste and friends soon leave us
but i hope that our friendship will always last...
best friends forever ...

a quote from our friends which i believe to be written by the girls from our class and given to everyone
i think is like that...very funny..lol
"true love is expressed by the heart and not the mind.
he loves you with all from his heart"
some thing like that i think

i read my friends message all very random leh...
i think i will need to start with my hw now

FD: dont be really be bothered about wat is happening just do ur part well

feeling bluez

dont know y...just feeling very upset but dont know what to say
my parents are on a ship visiting so they willn't be back till late hours
its not because my parents are not at home infact i m quite use to it
the feeling is like ...got a lot of things to say but just cannot say or in fact dont know what to say
like the horoscope book had say
i m a gal who kept all the secrets to myself and one day i just burst everything out
all the dislikes and likes for anyone
on the outside which applies to my close friends i can talk a lot
but on the inside when i m all alone , i became very very quiet kept thinking about anything that happened
how i wish i can just express my feeling to everyone without even thinking about their thoughts and protect all my friends and be very very true to myself...
express out loud in class and ignored all their feelings
the person that i wish to be is like that
being alone and kept all the thoughts to oneself is very hard...
lame on the outside but in fact my heart is as hard as a stone...coldness just feel it in.
my friends who are all sunshine to me shine on me , but how long can they last in fact.
i wish i had a brother who can support me and teaches me stuff...
but in the case is just impossible
all my relatives their children are all in pairs for most of them
or they have cousins which are close with them...
i got a lot of things that i wish i could say out but is just in fact hard to come out from my mouth
from young my best friend is onli the television...
i love to go to my kindergarden...which i can play with them...
but when time up, we all have to say good bye...

miracle

i leave my aunt house at around 6 ++
all my relative are all there
quite bored but also quite fun
i thought i lost my ear ring at the doorstep of my aunt house
too bad i thought
but in fact just now when i went to the toilet
my ear ring drop from my clothes ...
so strange
this is a miracle in fact...wo hahaha