I make a promise. I will do it and won't give up, making the promise come true. Jia you=)

Reality Game part 8

After 1 week since the party, Frank had not been going to school

Truth: Hey Ryan, do you know what happened to Frank?

Ryan: why? are you missing her. I heard that she is done with a fever for the past 1 week.

Truth: *silent (wonder how is she now?)

Truth: (looking at his phone, wondering whether to dial Frank's number)

Suddenly, Ryan snatched the phone from the back and dial on Frank no.

Frank: Hello. This is Frank.

(Ryan passing the phone back to Truth)

Truth: Hi...

Frank: erm, who are you?

Truth: hi, i am Truth
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ha ha! i went for a hair cut today...so before my hair can get any longer again, it became short again=)

I just like the person who cut my hair, he is so...*charming

Today, got to do some work=). My goal (emo and complete by friday)

everyone work hard for your dreams and goals.

I will go to those developing countries to help out when i grow older every year=)

Thanks to her. I finally cried.

Today, I received a letter. It is probably the nicest gift i ever had. It is a bookmark with the Name Hope on it. I just got very attracted to it and can stare at it for hours. Just looking at it, a lot of things went through my mind so fast that i does not know what it is. But just a very nice feeling.

It is not the letter that i cried. But just a person whose words really touch my heart. It has been so long since i cried and i really like the feeling. Especially during christmas... a sign of relief.

Now, it is really time to let go everything and do my work...I mean report.

Jia you!! got to reach my aim for this week. by sunday night=)

hope

roar, i can't stand it...i am seriously unhappy!! who ever come and disturb me is like stepping on a mine...

and i still got reports to start, which i haven't

1. Home
2. Counseling

reports that need edit

1. lifestyle

and i think my counselor is going to kill me (Bai, 2010)

Videos to edit:

1. pottery
2. Junk food
3. Junk food
4. Junk food
... and it takes ages


Looking at happy pictures, make me want to escape into a world where only happy things happen. Happy things are always seen to be far-fetched. Yet, standing at a different angle. One may get more happiness...=)

Just when my mood was getting better, I got seriously mad again.

" my friend PS me again, and this time is like she told me just a few minutes when i was about to reach again". I sort of know that she was busy this few days, but she promised me to go out... okay, should not be nagging about her...but still quite mad. and though i say to let her test her own medicine, i won't do it after thinking about it...=)

But if you happened to be reading this, ya... But i will soon be happy again. But don't Ps me last minute again. I don't mind that you are late, BUT DON'T PS ME =(

This few days, flooded with videos to do. i think i saw like blur images when i am walking back from school... Thousands and one thing to do...too many things to do and time is precious.

And sorry guys, for changing the timing for programme planning. But i promise to finish doing on thurs=)

I was also partially mad this few days, becos of my dad and the story book wasn't published yet=(

i hardly scold anyone, until i really cannot stand it.

BUT HE IS REALLY A PIECE OF SHIT.

Reality game part 7

Truth: Let’s go out and talk first (reaching out for Frank’s hand to put on his shoulder; to carry him out)

Frank’s thoughts: can I really accept him? His back is really very warm and comfortable

Truth: Frank, are you alright? (putting her down on the seat in the garden)

Frank: yess.. i am feeling just fine (Frank looked away while Truth still holding her hands)

Truth: Will you be willing to be my girlfriend?

Frank: (Looked at Truth in Shock) Stop Kidding. It is not really funny. We don’t suit each other.

Truth: Why not? You haven’t yet. You know you are my first person that i really love and hope to be with you forever.

Frank: Are you very sure that i am the first girl that you like? I mean I looked very ordinary and not pretty. And on the other hand, you are always surrounded my many pretty girls, and you are telling me that you don’t have any girlfriends before?

Truth: YES. I don’t have. Though I am very popular in school (with a grime), you take note of me, don’t you? You are the first girl that I really love. I am a serious lover and I take relationships very seriously. I once told a friend that I am wearing a mask that no one knows. I am a very different person. A person who has low confidence and used my laughter to hide my emotions and my low self-esteem. I longed to find someone that I truly loved and care about me.

Frank: Are you very sure?

Truth: You wait for a while (he ran to the nearest provision shop)

Truth: pls close your eyes

(Truth set up “somethings”)

Truth: you can open your eyes now

Frank: saw a heart shaped make up of sparklers.

Truth: Will you be my girlfriend? One and only true love

Frank:...

(Before she can say anything, Sharon called ...)

Sharon: Frank, we got to gather now. Come on.

Frank: Alright...and off she went. (look at Truth and she turned away)

Truth: (sit) How can i touch her heart?

It has been a long time since I type here. Ha-ha! Today, I manage to sort of guess correctly the things that 2 of my friends gave me and it makes me happy. Because, it makes me feel that horoscope is sort of real and link to every human in terms of their personality. I like the feelings of able to look through people’s mind and I can be very frank and sometimes to frank. Haha! It is nice to sort of analyze people true personality, the personality that they longed to hide it. As a scorpion, I like to sort of dig it out. And that how people used to avoid Scorpio. So don’t let me be “interested” in you as a specimen.

Human are so magical in terms of their emotions. They show many sides of emotions and feelings that they longed to hide. And of course, that includes me too- I don’t like others to dig my inner feelings. Yet I longed to understand how I really feel. Though I don’t like to hear, I still want to know. This blog seems to be a platform for me to release what I wanted to say. Though some point in time, I will still hide it.

This few days, I have been feeling sort of sad. I felt that life is really very saddening and I am really emotionally drained from the upcoming projects and reports to do. I felt that currently I am in the avoidance stage, where I go with my emotions and feelings instead of my logic and rationale. I being to avoid doing things that I really hated and started to immerse myself with Television programme. It is a miracle that someone actually finds out and tells me that, “Are you using it as an escape”. I got a shock at that time; I felt that she is actually correct. Perhaps I am just escaping from something, someone...

My determination is also decreasing. I test myself using the MRT tracks. It is stupid but at least it helped me to test how well can I resist. There is sort of a more comfortable road home from Newton and I liked to take a bus home from there. But of course, I need to save money and I will fully utilize my concession and walk home when I reached my stop. And I actually failed. I took a bus home for most of the time.

This few days, I kept watching mischievous Kiss. I really like the male character, seong jo, expecially his evil smile. Boys like him is sort of annoying but that what girls like about him. But at least he is VERY faithful. I can keep watching the show non-stop. Perhaps it is partially, i am in the avoidance stage. I really liked him a lot. It is the first time that i really talked about idol in this way... Perhaps bad influence from Yixin (counsellor...pls take note) It makes me feel like falling in love. Ha-ha! But it is not time yet for me...(-_______-)

Reality game part 6

Truth's thoughts: should i talk to her and ask her for a reply...perhaps she does not want to reply me?

Noisy boy: Are you going to prom tomorrow?

Quiet girl: Maybe not.

Noisy boy: As the sky turns blue, will you be there for me?... Lets' meet in the middle of the ballroom at 12am. I will be waiting there for you no matter what happen.

(before quiet girl can reply, noisy boy has gone offline)

Quiet girl's thoughts: should i go or not? (she stared at puff who is fast asleep. Puff prepared a another dress which is exactly the same for Quiet girl). I think i will get some sleep and think about it tomorrow.

The next day...

Ryan: how is it? are you ready for the prom tonight? So have you talk to the girl of your dreams and meet her tonight?

Truth: sort of yes. I have tell her who i am, however she did not give me any reply. and i got sort of worried that she won't come to the prom tonight, so i make an "agreement without getting her reply"

Ryan: cool man! first time, hearing you woo a girl. It seems that you hit a hard nail.... hEY, do you know who she is?

Truth: I sort of guess that she is Frank. but she did not tell me whether my guess is correct or not.

Ryan: So until now, you are still not sure who are you confessing to?... hey wait a minute, you sort of guess she is Frank and you confess to her?... does that mean that you like Frank?

(before Truth said anything, Truth and Ryan spotted Puff and Frank walking toward them)

Truth walked forward to them.

Truth: Hello. Will you be going to the Prom tonight? (Truth looked at Frank)

Puff: of course, i will go to the prom tonight. (Puff looked at Truth and looked at Frank)

Truth: How about you, Frank?

Frank: erm, i am still thinking about it. I suppose maybe not... Sorry, we got to go now, class is starting soon. (Dragging Puff away.)

Puff: Bye Truth.

Ryan: Give up, Truth. I think Ms Frank has no interest in you at all. On the other hand, I think Puff is in love with you. Maybe You will like to change your choice.

Truth's Thoughts: It looks like she is not coming to prom tonight at all.

Truth: I am very confident that Frank likes me. (Thinking about the words that they chatted at first)

Ryan: I admire your courage. But i doubt so. Do you need my help?

(The night of prom)

Puff: are you going to prom tonight? (busy preparing her dress and putting on make-up)

Frank's thoughts : (still sitting in front watching tv, but her mind is somewhere else: should i go and meet the guy that i always wanted to know who he is?) since I know that truth can't possibly like me. But...

Frank: I don't think i will be going. Enjoy your night, k.

Puff: all right, but... never mind. I will enjoy myself. haha! meeting new guys and meeting truth.

Frank: You are meeting Truth?

Puff: haha! yes, we had a date.

Puff's thoughts: no matter what i will tell truth that i like him.... i am sorry Frank. let me borrow your quiet girl name and tell him that i am Quiet girl.

Puff: Bye Frank. (Whispering, sorry Frank)

(Puff leaving the house)

Frank's thought: Sorry Noisy boy. (watching television program)

Frank went to on the computer.

(On the computer, it shows : no one is online currently)

zzzzzzzzz...you got a mail

feme: Hey Frank, you are not to prom tonight? Do you want to join in a treasure hunt game?

Frank: huh? Treasure hunt? I thought you want to go to prom tonight

Feme: At first yes, but i think about it and felt like not attending. After all, not many of my clique is going, so We decide to play this treasure hunt game. Do you want to join in?

Frank: I think i will like to join in. Thanks for the invitation. haha!

Feme: okay! we shall meet at tiong at 7pm. You will be in sharon's group. By the way, the last station will be in the prom ballroom. haha! i set it cos i wanted to take a look at the prom. Is that okay with you?

Frank: yes, it is okay.

(At 7 pm, Frank set off)

(meanwhile, Puff is busy mixing around with people in the ballroom and Truth came.)

Puff: hey Truth, you came?

Ryan: haha! Puff, you looked great today. May i ask you to dance?

Puff: yep, but wait... i got something to tell Truth. (being dragged away by Ryan)

Truth went out to the garden alone, waiting to go back to the ball room at 12 am. He walked through and fro... feeling very anxious.

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Meanwhile. frank was still on a treasure hunt with her other friends

Sharon: Hey frank, we are going to lose. Our group got to break up to look for the other clues. Can you go to the prom first? to look for the crown and take a photo of it first?

Frank: All right, I suppose i can go there alone first.

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back at the prom.

Puff: Hey Truth. So you are in the garden. i have been looking for you, high and low.

Truth: Hi Puff, why are you looking for me? is there anything?

Puff: Erm, Truth. I have something that i wanted to tell you. and i suppose that it will be better to tell you face to face. ...actually I am Quiet girl.

(Meanwhile Frank was hiding behind the pillar, hearing the conversation)

Puff: I wanted to tell you this and through the conversation, i have slowly grow to love you.

Truth: you are Quiet girl?... (he went into shock, how about Frank?)

Puff: and yesterday, you ask me whether do you want me to be your girlfriend and my answer is yes.

Truth: erm... sorry, but i think that there is a misunderstanding here. I am very sorry. Are you really quiet girl?

Puff: yes,... we have been partner for the competition for about one month.

(Frank's heart sank, when she heard Puff confessing to him.)

Frank's thoughts: so Noisy boy is really Truth...and Puff really like Truth a lot. (Frank walked away slowly)

(Meanwhile, Ryan was also in the garden, he heard the conversation and saw Frank hiding in the pillar and walking away in tears.)

Truth: Sorry, i think that there is a misunderstanding. I thought that you are quiet girl is someone and confess to her. I am so sorry about this.

Puff: but I really love you a lot. Why can't you love me too? who do you like?

Truth: I am so sorry about this...(walk away, leaving Puff alone in the garden)

Ryan: Hey truth, i have something to tell you (dragging truth away to the side)

Ryan: I heard your conversation about the love confession. and sad to tell you, i am not the only one to heard it. Someone heard it and left with tears. You apparently broke 2 ppl hearts in one night.

Truth: who?

Ryan: Frank heard it too. She heard the whole conversation.

Truth: really? she really heard it? and she cried? where is she now? I got to explain to her.

Ryan: Are you sure you really like Frank? she does not look like she suits you, do you know? and after all, she is not Your QUIET girl. she is just an ordinary girl who is just an average girl

Truth: I understand that. but i just cannot stop thinking and looking at her. I got to explain to her. Where is she now? tell me.

Ryan: she left and she looked like she is walking towards the backstage of the ballroom.

(Truth ran to the backstage, looking very worried and anxious)

Ryan: Love is just like this. Hope that all lovers will be forever together.

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(at the backstage, it is very dark)

Truth: Frank, are you there? can you hear me?

(a pot dropped and a clanking sound was made)

Frank's thoughts: oh my leg, it hurts. I think i must have sprained it. what a bad day. (Frank started to sob) my best friend is with the person that i loved. My best buddy online is the person that i wished that he could love me. All went wrong...

Truth: Frank, are you there?

Frank's thoughts: I must have been hallucinating. That seems to be Truth's voice. It can't be...

(as Truth's voice got louder)

Truth: are you there, Frank? answer me please. I am sorry, k. Please come out.

Frank's thoughts: Oh my leg, it really hurts.

Frank: Is there anyone, I am here.

Truth: Is that you Frank? wait for me.

In the dark. Frank and Truth met.

Truth: what happened, Frank? Are you alright?

Frank: I tripped over the shelf and i sprained my ankle. and now i can't walk.

Truth: Can you get up? I will help you up.

Frank: my leg really hurts a lot. I can't get up now.

Truth: Come, i will carry you on my back.

Frank: is that alright? erm... i think no. Can you get someone to help?

Truth: Are you avoiding me? (touching Frank's face which is covered with tears.)

Frank: No...(with her voice sounding rough). why should i avoid you?

Truth: Because You know that your best friend, Puff confess her love to me. and you are afraid that you will...

Frank: No. I am not avoiding you. Though i know that she likes you. I knew that... and you are just a normal friend. why should i avoid you?

Truth: (Holding Frank's shoulder and looking into her eyes. Frank tried to avoid direct eye contact.)... because you like me.

Frank: No. (Trying to push his hands away)

Truth: Hear me out, okay! I don't love Puff. I only treated her as a friend. My heart lies with you. I really love you, Frank.

Frank: (in a shock, before she can say anything)...

Truth hugged and kiss Frank. Frank tried to resist but in the end, give in.

Frank: But why me?

Truth: (still hugging Frank) Haha! i did not notice you in the first place, Frankly. But i sort of got attracted to you, when you seems special as everyone surrounded me and started to greet me but you did not. I got really curious about you. I started to notice you and your every actions. Your smile really captivated me. Your words and your silent really keep my heart pumping. The feelings that whenever i meet you, is really very different from what i had with other girls.

Frank: that is because that you are always being chased by girls. Now, you are just thinking that i am a person, or perhaps a goal that you wanted to achieve. And now, you reach the goal. you will simply kick me aside.

Truth: No. That is not true, and i will prove it to you...

i felt that i am lagging behind in whatever i do, especially due to the high dose of ice cream the week before. I am now physically and mentally drained. I felt that i am very slow in the things that i do, and desperately need very clear instructions to do my work. Need to be very organized in my work, listing down the things that i need to finish and etc. Be clear and not waste any single time on not necessary things. I tried to reduce my tv time and do my work or read some books now. However, I felt that i am emotionally tired. Monday, i was getting a big headache and i went home early, so i did not attend 2 meeting... felt being lag behind. GOTTA catch up... by reading minutes.

Today, i was watching a movie which our neuro teacher was showing us. It was funny and it talks about a lady who will lose the memory the next day due to a brain trauma. I wonder how it will be like to lose the short term memory and forget what happen after everyday, only retaining the previous memory before the car accident. It might be a good thing, if you often lived in happiness previously. Similar incident happen to my friend colleague and it seems normal to her. Perhaps, if one lived a simple life, does time really matter to one?