Despite that it was the 'holiday season' for me, i still felt that i was wasting my time...the thought of having to stuck to this course and doing the same job, simply made me dreaded. And the horrible thing is i am starting in may. I just felt that I am not up to the job but just wanting to find a stable job and settled down. The interview date email was just sent to my mail again, considering whether to go and just get bombarded by their questions. This time round... i must be well-prepared and listen to their questions and provide the interviewer with the most 'right' answer.

I can't believe i am still awake now!! it is almost reaching midnight. Shall recap what i did during this period of holiday...

1. kbox with my fyp group mates...which is like finally and they can hear my singing:)

2. find a part time job and completed the training, get to know new friends

3. made bugis my home, have to going there at least 4x per week...until i know the items in the shop and until the sales assistant had kindly say:" oh, you come again ah"

4. went back to my previous attachment centre to visit my 'kids'. very glad to say that they still remember me...going to go back again next week in the morning and afternoon...since I was assigned to do the 'night' shift (part-time job).

5. went to the library and read all the books that i wanted to do so in the past

6. went to watch hunger games with my friends...horrible but niiiiiiice show

7. and find a part time job near my house....:) perhaps i shall find another part time job since i will only start work at 5pm.

I think i am seriously mad...and my tuition kid is seriously going to kill me cos i kept changing the timing for the tuition and she moved her house... i need to travel so much further to give her tuition now...

Random: since life is short, there are many things that i wanted to do... so let me list it down.

1. ride the bicycle at east coast park for 3 hours

2. go and visit my 'kids' at my attachment place everyday...somehow it is released stress and worries place for me

3. go to my friend's house to bake cookies

4. go to the beach and just listen to the waves

5. go for another porridge buffet

actually, after listing a few of the things... there are nothing that i really wanted to do, all i wanted is to stay at home and accompany my family...

there is a bomb in everyone's life, the question is only when will it tick off???

perhaps mine is early, i just have to live as positively as possible. perhaps the next minute, i will be gone with the air:)