countless of endless nights, i sought refuge in watching repeated shows. hoping to seek miracle and hope in this shows. yet, one scene by scene , just cannot remove the hard feelings that i had for myself. feeling helpless, make me more unwilling to do anything in the world. my steps become slower and slower. i just hope that one person will give me the reassurance. my mummy laughter and my dad laughter gives me a sense of happiness. yet, the bad feeling, my anxiety that i give for myslef can only be conquer and control by me. time and time passes, the things that i longed to do remain half way done. It seems totally endless. yet in my heart, i knew i always have a plan for it. I knew that i can do it. just let me write all this down. and i will know that i am able to do it.

time is the catalyst. just let time and hardwork do everything. everyone is born to be useful, they just need the key to it and the door for you to find. just find it and everything will prove to be fine. escape seems to be a good way, but it will never ever work for NG XIANG JUN.

give me the reassurance and i can do the job.

for a new year, for a good start.
a happy beginning for everyone.
a happy time for everyone.
enjoy the last moments of 2009
and find the truth and your real belonging in the 2010.

wish everyone had a good time in 2010 and let's face the challenges bravely once again

xj