i did not know what i should be writing in the first place too...
this time, i knew the result will be something like that once i finish the exam. but i still carry a small hope. however, life is not always in its right way. perhaps, this is my destiny that is pushing me into this path. i hope the road that i am taking now...i will be able to succeed as i will be moving to a path that seldom anyone will be taking at this point of time. but i really like it a lot which i finally realised it and though some of my friends' counselling did disturb my decision. yet, i strongly believe this is the path that i wanted. so it really depends whether they will give me the opportunity to move into this path that i really wanted. and i will write in my blog when i successfully get into this place and call those that i should tell and of course my friends which is the secret reader and the gang. but... perhaps it may not turn out the way that i wish for later on, i am still grateful to say that we will always be a bunch of best friends though i may not have the courage to communicate with some of you now.but i will not forget all of you, and i believe that i will call you once i have the courage to face all this, really on my own and you will be able to see the old xj, the characteristics that you once knew. there will be one day, when i will call you, just give me about a month but don't you dare to ignore my call...or i will be marching to your house though i am not sure where is it.and for now, i really thanks those sms and friends' call of concern. i know that i did not reply to this smses, because when i read it...i really don't know what should i write. i was really very afraid that i will not be able to get in and i hate to break down and cry...
just holding tears that i no longer wanted...
i really wish that i will get into it though i may have to go for interviews and appealing...
the last entries for now....
your regards,
xiangjun