LAMER POST

haha! at last the letter came to my house letter box... this is the first time, i felt so happy for this few weeks. i simply cannot stop smiling. i hope that i can survive the four years of lessons too and this time, i will work extremely hard! at least, i hope that my determination will last throughout the four years. haha! i am so happy that at least this door is opened for me. Beyond this door leads to a narrow but a very meaningful path...though, now i am feeling a bit of scared, yet filled with happiness.but now, feeling confused but still extremely happy!!!!!!!!but i still feeling extremely confused that what i told secret reader. but after all, due to this few days of considering, i think i should pursuit my interest and partially my dream.
i got into the therapy (OT) course! HURRAY! HURRAY! HURRAY! perhaps, afterall finishing the A-level,it is everyone's dream to go into university. Frankly speaking, it is mine too! But upon receiving my certificate, the most important subject actually... but luckily, this course requires A-level certificate in order to apply, so i did not waste my 2-years of education. luckily all the students there will be the same age as me or even older or i will feel extremely weird somehow.And it is a good thing that i read that bronchures lots of time and that bronchure kept appearing in front of me for about 3 times, with 2 times ended in the rubbish bin. but at last, i caught it.and this dream can also partially fulfil my childhood dream of becoming a doctor, with the white robe and perhaps seeing patients happily leaving the hospitals. So, i think i will most likely carry on with my dream, helping a lot of people.
And if i get into university, most likely it will be engineering course. Though i will also work hard to get a degree, it is still not what i really liked.At least, this is what i think upon reading the modules.But at this point in time, i only dream about therapy therapy therapy...To many people, i am actually going back to the start. i knew that too and all my friends will be in year 3 and 2. They called me weird, as going to JJ instead of AJ. have the ability to get into pri UNI or the singa uni (least popular course)w/o the criteria of GP to get aT least a degree or so, yet choose to go poly. and rejecting the 2-year food course and get the must-3-year course.Me, myself, considered to be weird...the things that i like, even my parents, find it hard to understand. SO since i am weird, all my friends are also weird! oK , now i am talking craps!
HAHA! But the worst thing is the form have to be completed by friday , with a lot of document...but i enjoyed getting into the school.
This time, i can talk about my feelings le...
that day, when i really got back my result slips. I stared at it for a long time, infront of ms Martin. Finally, i realised my results. i am the kind that can get back to repeat J2...becos of english.so probably, one will know how is my results.
i was rather in a shock and helpless to where i am supposed to go. It is a disaster for me, luckily with YR and XX that accompany me to the leture hall to listen to the talk and repeat the things that the teacher said. So, that week after, practically, i have not talk to most of my friends unless they called...so sms not to say, is no reply. That week, i have to carry on to hand in my application to all polys, jc and uni.but uni, i haven't handed in yet until now. I felt really very confused as in what should i do...so i have to hand in forms in order to find the correct key to open all the doors. Luckily Val, was having holidays so she practically accompany me and help out too. Perhaps, she knew i will be very confused too.And i was afraid that JJ called me much earlier than an of the school.So, I practically was pestering the admin of one of the poly every 3 days to see whether i am accepted. as the therapy course really really is my interest too...and the scariest thing do happened, jj called me on last sat.Because, i never listen to her call a couple of times and in fact, i kept missing it so i was the last student to be notified.In fact, i was supposed to report to school today. However, without preparation and work notification, i changed my date to next mon. Luckily, the letter came today. Or else, i will be in woodbridge soon...not as a therapist but a patient. And the best thing is today is my MUMMY birthday...all along i was wondering whether will i receive the letter today, indeed my wish really come true! and my balloon and capsule wish do come true.
Miracle do happen, this time i really believe it.
Random: there is a lot of stars surrounding us. every stars represent a hope from every individual, it is this hope that leads us to a pathway filled with miracles.
Finally, i will like to thanks:
VAL: accompanying me to almost every school=)
JER: who did my work as well as chatted=)
SHAO: the longest friend who cares=)
secret R: first one to sms, as well as showing me courage for nature reserves...truely a person who makes me admire=)...happy or not
YR:sms me...though very cold person...=)
XH: allowing her house to be my refuge and com too and chatted=)
LIT/KJX: supporting me with words and sms=) and KJX, luckily don't need to repeat jc2 and take the A-LEVEL WITH you
FINALLY,
of course. it is my very dearest family. though, i thought my father will be very angry and disappointed. and of course, i knew that they are very disappointing. Yet, they did not show in front of me. As their child, i am really very glad to have such supporting parents. With their words and smiles and jokes, it makes me loosen up!!!
during the incident, though i fell, on the other hand, it makes me realised a lot of things which i have not yet discovered. FRIENDSHIP, COURAGE, FAILURE as well as KINSHIP.