When I got home today, I can't help but just tear continuously. I told my mum that I am super stressed and I also tell my friends who were currently overseas. I just couldn't take it... presentation, assessment and coming out with goals for the clients. There seems to be endless and I am on the verge of breaking down. Addition to that, I did not have a wonderful holiday during my chinese new year. It just added onto the stress level. Initially, I thought that having a hair cut could reduce the stress level as it was always able. But this time, it does not seems to work. 

Sometimes I got so tired of being a therapist. As in..I love my patients. However, there were still countless of work to do everyday when i got home. It seems like endless of it to do. Which at this point, I got so tired of it. I tried to speak to someone...hopefully, someone will be able to understand. I think I just need someone who I can talk to and pour out my sorrows. I wanted to scream at my top of my voice. I just hope to stare at the blank sea and stare at it, with the wind blowing against my face. 

That is just my wish... Writing my pain and stress in the blog, helped to relieve slightly and talking to my junior, help to relieve slightly more. I think i am ready to at least hang on to tomorrow and time to do baking session on thursday if not my clients would be pestering and asking when they would be doing cooking again. 

The counter transference effect, hope that it would work on me soon. 

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